echoesechoing

wrong link

2009-03-10T20:32:00.001+08:00

Sorry, wrong link.

HERE

moving?

2009-03-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Moving?
to Here

Intruder.

2009-03-04T08:59:00.002+08:00

Haha.

This morning, at the stroke of midnight, my room mate screamed.

There was a guy in the house.

And he took away Marissa's laptop.

Pesky little thing cut through the mosquito net of the high bathroom windows and slip in quietly, even though Marissa used extra care in place LOTS AND LOTS of stuff on the window ledge.

At least he didn't manage to walk pass the corridor undetected, otherwise we would have thought that no one was there and that the laptop magically disappeared with the fairies and unicorns.

:S.

Fortunately, he did not dare to go into our rooms, otherwise he would have taken away more.

So today, I only had 1 hour of sleep 3_3.

dissatisfaction

2009-02-24T20:31:00.001+08:00

I am dissatisfied.
The perfectionist in me is wanting more.

....

2009-02-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

BEWARE OF SIWONSTER! SHES A SEA MONSTER!

freak-a-zoid

2009-02-22T21:27:00.003+08:00

if i freak out at you on msn/skype, just let me.
Cos i m freaking about school

2009-01-23T21:44:00.005+08:00

I was thinking that I could just pour out my soul into this space....
But then I realised that it was impossible.
I cant bring my mind to it.

I miss Perth.
Somehow I adjusted myself to think that that is my home already.
Its sad, knowing that I don't really have any attachment to a place.

I should stop typing in paragraphs of three.

:3

2009-01-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

New skin!
Looks better than the other, cos this looks better in organisation XD

Anyway, good luck che min for school later today...
(rahh, i know holidays are so much fun, especially short ones!)
And congrats David and Pim for finally being together!
YAY!

Its happy how people you know above the normal acquaintance level get hitched to each other.
d (^_^) b

So I have been looking around and realised that NEWS released an album!
(And i didn't even notice... --")
But sadly, I didn't think this album is that good.

A drop of water in a desert.

2009-01-10T13:06:00.003+08:00

So I haven't been updating, because i was doing this home improvement stuff

Yesh I painted the door, and the green stuff is stickers.

:3 The tree doesn't look ok from this photo, but in real life the proportion is alright.

New Look

2008-12-13T22:33:00.002+08:00

So I have a new look for my blog.
Which is really really very green.
But really really simple (:

Anyway, I cant really be bothered to make my own skin, because I realise that I have better things to do.
For example, playing MU online (:.
Finally got it.
Stupid China ISP didn't allow me in the past,
At long last I can play it!

So.... I realised I was being stupid today.
I forgot that this was SINGAPORE not PERTH.
And I went into the library thinking that I could check out all the books in my hand.
(Which were like about 12 action packed marvel comics. {I know I am such a geek})
Sighhh.

Anyway.
Results came out yesterday!
I passed all of them!
Celebration!
But then I realised my past worries were really just stupid, because on what basis did I have to doubt my own abilities?
Thank God for his help.
He was the one that helped me greatly in my last minute conquest for knowledge. {which btw, was really really last minute}
To think that I almost puked {kk not really, I exaggerated} before going into the website.
So things are well.
As compared to last week.

真冬の星座　－　伊藤由奈

2008-12-01T01:39:00.001+08:00

Baby tell me how you feel
So please come back to me
離れないあのメロディ

※二人見上げてた　真冬の星座
今も変わらず輝いてる
あなたも同じ気持ちでいますか
今すぐに会いにきて
強く抱きしめてほしい※

悲しい夢の途中で目が覚めた夜
Lately I don't wanna see the morning sun　光は差す

Don't you know I wanna be with you
涙で滲んでる星を見上げ　wishin'upon a star
何もいらない　ただ
あなたのぬくもりに抱かれて眠りたい

一人見上げてる　繋がる星座
あなたの街も輝いてる
どんなに遠く離れていても
届けたい　この想い
強く抱きしめてほしい

冷たい風が運んだ懐かしいメロディ
あなたがそばにいたこと　願いは遠く

Don't you know I wanna be with you
瞬く星空に手を伸ばして　reachin'out to the sky
何も出来ない　ただ
あなたのためだけに歌うことしか　今は

二人見上げてた　真冬の星座
今も変わらず輝いてる
あなたも同じ気持ちでいますか
今すぐに会いにきて
強く抱きしめてほしい

I'll be yours and you'll be mine

一人見上げてる　繋がる星座
あなたの街も輝いてる
どんなに遠く離れていても
届けたい　この想い

block

2008-11-28T09:45:00.000+08:00

writer's block.
Cant write anything

1 more paper to go!

2008-11-18T02:05:00.002+08:00

Yuna Ito - Koi wa Groovy X2

OMG this song, its like her voice underwent a major reinforcement.
Bravo!

The MV is nice too.
Although its really very shameless advertising for Japan's GAP line, the MTV is really good.
I especially like it when she went "passion!" and the models stopped dancing.
Nice stop and go effect.

YAY! about in 13 hours time me = FREEEE!
(:
Can read all the trashy action/detective novels now!
Can go and watch 花より男子F! (:
(i watched the starting, its a long plot line, but i wouldn't miss out 松本潤 scolding reporters with his bad ass rich guy attitude)
And Code Blue! <3
Haven't found out what happened to 相沢君.
If I was taking med I would be extremely inspired by him.

This also means that I have to conjure up a list of imaginary items that would explain my expenses.
BLEHHH.
I basically live on a "If i haven't used it before, no use" and a "Buy what you need, no looky at windows!"
And I haven't really worked up a shortage of moolah.
*shrugs*

And once again, my mum is telling me not to get a part time job at all (in perth).
Sigh.
well see you later then!

2008-11-12T18:42:00.002+08:00

Just 3 more to go...

You know, I never realised how bad it was to be the only child, till today.
Its hard to be the only child, especially when you grow old.
It has nothing to do with companionship or love.
But it has to do with duty.
No matter how you look at it, 1 child supporting 2 people is difficult.
And I have no one to share this burden with.
Furthermore, there is the addition of one more child in the family, which I can't bear.
I just want to run away.

Growing up looks even more bleak than before.

And the worse thing is that I can't possibly share my problems in depth.

you know you're singaporean when.......

2008-11-10T12:07:00.002+08:00

... you realise that most of your guy friends disappear when you graduate from high school.

...

2008-11-05T12:15:00.003+08:00

OBAMA WONNNN! (:
So now I have the latest thing to add to "What happened on my birthday list!" : Obama elected as president of US! Whoopee! (technically its my birthday, in America)

Yesterday was Melbourne Cup, so I sat down in front of the TV and waited for the race to start.
It was such disappointment.
Why?
Because people spend millions on money, all on ONE race.
One Freaking Race.
Even Jennifer Hawkins was sponsored a AUS$150k head piece just for one race.
OMFG

Well birthday was yesterday.
I never had to reply to so many facebook wall posts ever before. Wow.
Haha Thanks to all who wished me, again.
Thanks Pim, especially for her really really BEEG birthday present.
And thanks Mum and Dad, for your early birthday present of sending me here to study.

Yesterday's birthday celebration was sort of funny, because we had fun with the candles.
I had candles that were in the shape of HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
And Luissa and Helena were competing about what candles that we should get.
And the atmosphere was really high!

btw, the guy is Keith, my homestay's bf.

URGH and i forgot to bring my SONY ERICSSON installation software...
Otherwise i wouldnt be having that much problems getting the photos online...

Anyway, OMG, why no one told me other songs of CHEMISTRY are so good?!?!
(not chemistry the subject, you nitwit.)
HAHA I am so stuck onto their song Point of No Return.
But then I can't download because Australia has banned the website that I normally get my songs from.
DAMNN
But people in China should still be able to access the site.

New slang definitions:

To pull a Siwon [2-poo-le-eh-C-won] : To travel to a country by plane only to leave the country again on the same day or the next.

To pull a Michelle [2-poo-le-eh-Mee-shi-ell] : To move to another country very QUICKLY without even applying for a student visa.

I dont know about Chemin and Christine...

Anyway back to mugging. (Both in the slang way and in the literal way. ;D I m stealing time! ) さよなら！

So...

2008-10-28T11:34:00.001+08:00

Just asking, is anyone going to be in Singapore in Dec-Feb?

Going back then (:

Baking a cake at midnight 'tween the passing hour of daylight savings time.

2008-10-26T01:07:00.002+08:00

<_<
its officially DST in one hour.
And theres church at 8/9 am tomorrow.

niceeeeeee. 3_3

Haha.

Step to Step Guide to Picking Lemons at Night!

Step 1: Go outside

Step 2: Run back in to grab a jacket and handphone cause its fricking cold and dark outside.

Step 3: Run back out to find yourself in dew-ridden grass.

Step 4: Go to lemon tree.

Step 5: Turn on light function of phone.

Step 6: Touch a lemon to see whether it is ripe.

Step 7: Then shake it to see whether bugs are on it.

Step 8: Wait for bugs to evacuate.

Step 9: Twist the lemon from the branch as you would to a human's head.

Step 10: Drop the lemon, for extra caution if bugs are still on it.

Step 11: Repeat steps 5-10 for more lemons.

~~
XD
And I did exactly that.
YAWNNN

So stressed now.

fatigue.

2008-10-24T23:44:00.003+08:00

You know, I never really realised how tired I actually was.
Maybe I am.
I don't really know.

Tanu reminded me earlier just now that I had no breaks at all.

"you know u really no breaks
as in the moment o's finished
you jumped into midway ib
then the moment ib finished
u jumped into uni
hectic, no?"

hahahahahahahaha.....
Never really thought of that.
I guess my life is a continuous string of hectic events that is constantly lengthened by knotting the end of the string to another piece of string.
Always seemed so, especially after I went to Secondary School.

hmmm..

Funny how lies also function like that.

Pas si facile
D'être aussi pure dans un monde qui l'est moins
(Not so easy
To be as pure in a world that is less)

French sounds so good, heh? XD
Wished I actually continued French. :z

キミがいるとどんなことでも
乗りきれるような気持ちになってる
こんな日々がいつまでもきっと
続いてくことを祈っているよ

Sighh... Passing you is awkward and unbearable... I can't say anything to you, and neither can you. Let it pass.

random thought

2008-10-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

My mum always said to me in the past that not to do stuff on the bed, otherwise whatever I do in the future I would rather do it on the bed than on the proper table and chair.

... That would mean that "doing business in bed" would take on a totally different meaning. XD

Flowers - moumoon & Style. - 西野カナ

2008-10-23T20:28:00.004+08:00

03. Flowers
作詞: YUKA・Kenn Kato
作曲: KOUSUKE MASAKI

This is all about you, yeah
Flowers of your love
I want you to tell me

ばっかみたい･･･身動きさえ取れなかった First love
独占欲の果てに迎えた思わぬ Bad end
あなたのその瞳私を映す鏡だった
すがる思いで覗いたら
まだ続けられたかな?

But I said “It's over"
Cause I believed in you ひとりよがり
Now I know 素直になれずに
Too late to wait ちりばめた涙拭いて
少し晴れた目で空を見た

So tell me x3 愛はずっとこの胸に残るの?
Really x3 まぶしい笑顔つないだその手もキスも
Baby x3 大事にするねココロ重ねた日々
意地っ張りのあの日の私
いまならばいえるのかな?
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

私のハートに咲かせてくれた花 So beautiful
不器用な優しさはドラマティックじゃないけど
その生き方ひたむきに輝いた全てが
ありあわせの私の価値観塗り替えてくれたでしょう?

But I know it's over,
Since I got over you 得たものは?
Something special 暖かな
I say good-bye 遠ざかるあなたに
せめてこの想い届くように

So tell me x3 愛はずっとその胸に残るの?
Really x3 いとしい指が撫でたこの髪もキスも
Baby x3 大事にしてねココロ重ねた日々
少し大人になれたみたい
感謝の気持ちを込めて
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

真夜中目が覚め
夢の中を探ってみるけれど
あなたがただ微笑んでたそれくらいしか
なぜか思い出せないの
あーあ幻でもいい

何度だって聴けるレコードと
もう二度と聞けないあなたの声と

So tell me x3 愛はずっとこの胸に残るの?
Really x3 まぶしい笑顔つないだその手もキスも
So tell me x3 愛はずっとその胸に残るの?
Really x3 いとしい指が撫でたこの髪もキスも
Baby x3 大事にするねあなたがくれた花
あのキスもあの指もあの声もあなたの匂いも
Dalala･･･無理に忘れようとしないよ
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

Translation:
This is all about you, yeah
Flowers of your love
I want you to tell me

Like an idiot...I couldn't even move - first love
Because I wanted you all to myself, I met with an unexpected bad end
Those eyes of yours were mirrors that reflected me
If I'd clung to love and peeked inside
Would we have lasted?

But I said, "It's over"
'Cause I believed in you, I was complacent
Now I know as I can't be honest
Too late to wait, I wipe away the scattered tears
I saw the sky with my slightly swollen eyes

So tell me, tell me, tell me will this love always linger in my heart?
That really, really, really dazzling smile, the hand I held, and your kiss
Baby, baby, baby, I'll treasure all those days in my heart
I was so stubborn that day
But can I say it now?
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

The flower that bloomed in my heart is so beautiful
Your clumsy kindness isn't very dramatic but
Did your way of life, how everything about you shone so earnestly
Change my half-baked values?

But I know it's over,
Since I got over you, what have I gained?
Something special, something warm
I say good-bye as you grow distant
I hope this love, at least, will reach you

So tell me, tell me, tell me will this love always linger in my heart?
Your really, really, really dear fingers stroking my hair, and your kiss
Baby, baby, baby, please treasure all those days in your heart
I seem to have become more mature
With all my gratitude
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

In the dead of night I awaken
I search through my dreams
But for some reason all I can remember
Is you smiling
Ah, I don't care if it's an illusion

I can listen to that record over and over
But I'll never hear your voice again

So tell me, tell me, tell me will this love always linger in my heart?
That really, really, really dazzling smile, the hand I held, and your kiss

So tell me, tell me, tell me will this love always linger in my heart?
Your really, really, really dear fingers stroking my hair, and your kiss
Baby, baby, baby, I'll treasure the flowers you gave me
And that kiss, those fingers, that voice, and your scent

Da-la-la...I won't force myself to forget
I thank you for your love
Flowers of your love

Style. - 西野カナ
はじまるよキミとボクを
つなぐ扉ノックすれば
どんな未来が僕らを待っているの?

大人がそう求めるのは　
完璧なスタイル
いつか歯車のように
すべてが重なるように

カミサマ　いるなら聞いてよ　
いついつまでもこの瞬間
リピートできない毎日を
見送らなくちゃ

だからあともう少しだけって　
子供でいたい
boys&girlsが何人も
この世に隠れ潜んでは夢を見ている
っていうストーリー

夕闇に消えていく今日は
いったい何を残していくの?
近づいてくる　君の確かな足音

たくさんの日々　抱きしめたら
夜の空も　悪くはない
惑星が輝く　絶好の背景で

カミサマ　Happy song聴いてよ　
永久保存版のレコーディング
Take 1,2,,,For you !　
声高らかに歌っていたいよ

今はあともう少しだけって　
淡い思いに
後ろ髪ひかれながら
流れる日々を音階へlala
メロディ鳴らそう

Black or White　この世界に
ひとつひとつ意味を
与えてpaint my life

‘3D'グレーの曖昧さはナシさ
大人のいつもの
決まり文句なんだから

カミサマ　いるなら聞いてよ　
いついつまでもこの瞬間
リピートできない毎日を
見送らなくちゃ

だからあともう少しだけって　
子供でいたい
ピーターパンの為に
モーニングまた目覚めたらこの世界を
照らし
てね　All right?

Translation:
It’s beginning now
What kind of future waits for us
If I knock on the door that entwines us together?
As we’re growing, what we’re searching for
Is a perfect style
Someday, like gears turning
Everything will fall into place

God, if you’re there, listen to me
You have to watch over these moments, forever
these days we can never repeat

So just for a little while longer
I always want to be a kid
There are many boys and girls
Hiding behind in this world and dreaming
And that’s my story

Today the twilight is diminishing
What just keeps leaving?
I can hear your approaching footsteps
You hold and close many everyday lives
The night sky isn’t that bad
As the planet shines with the perfect background

God, are you listening to the Happy Song
I’m recording for the permanant preservation
Take 1, 2,..FOR YOU!
Now after a little more
I want to sing loudly
Even though your hair is being pulled
You’re thinking it’s faint
Everyday life flows, lala the melody will be on the musical scale

This world is black or white
Give meaning to each and every moment, paint my life
It doesn’t give any ambiguity to the grey ‘3D’
That’s the usual platitude of adults

God, if you’re there, listen to me
You have to watch over these moments, forever
these days we can never repeat
So just for a little while longer
I always want to be a kid
Just like Peter Pan
In morning light of this world
You’ll wake up All right?

I feel like overdosing on sad songs.
Funny how that out of my favourite singer, I can only hear one song from her when I am sad.
I guess I will be overdosing on ひとり　more than I want to.

My parents are leaving shanghai tomorrow, so I won't be going back to Shanghai anymore.
But I can't help but worry.
Why?
No idea.
Its like trying to start anew, but with more obstacles in front of me than before.

There won't be a steady flow of income anymore.
In fact, there might not be a flow at all.
The future is so unsure, sometimes I wonder its safe to move forward.

Today is the day where I declare I have given up on him.
Why?
Because it seems stupid to go on.
I want to leave this summer with happy feelings, not of longing.

Happiness is so difficult.
Its so easy to just be sad and move on with pain.

2008-10-21T17:45:00.002+08:00

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2008-10-19T18:27:00.003+08:00

Well, havent blogged in such a long time.....

EXAMS ARE IN THREE WEEKS!!!!!!! O_O *spazzes out* <--- ( more like zone out)
Well thank goodness Chem 1102 is the last exam!... If it was in the front I would probably flip.

SUMMER IS INTERFERRING WITH SPRING!!!! NOOOO!....
sometimes I wish my parents are still going to be in shanghai, so that I will experience perpetual winter-spring (:.
Hard luck.

.... SO things happened this week:

1. Li jin sang to my mp3 songs!

LOLLLLLLLLLLLL I m still laughing at thinking what she sang. She listened to my mp3 player and then started singing "de deh de de dum X10" And I had no idea what she was singing. -.- And then I realised that it was Boston - Augustana -.-""".

"You don't know me" to " HCL doesn't know me" XD.

Next song encued was Touch My Body - Mariah Carey. She couldn't change lyrics in time so the next song was Mirror Mirror - M2M.

" I must be stupid, must be crazy, must be out of my mind" (cues FURIOUS nodding)

And 不得不爱 - 潘伟柏 ... I can't even describe it...

2. Pim had 5 days MC!!!

TnT　Spent my week alone in lectures.... Kaye too didn't go for lectures as she had to finish her lab report... ): But I actually stayed awake for Chem1102 alone!!!! O_O ZOMG.

3. AAHH.. Almost got found out. ):

Haha... well. Li jin almost learnt who CCD is. :S.... And I did not blush. I repeat, I did not blush. I was just covering my eyes. <_<

4. I seriously think that one of the chemists in the chemistry looks high.

I was imitating him on friday to Pim. He always has this chemically intoxicated smile and funny walk when I see him. Its like a little high kid. And.... its just really funny.

PLOP!

... hmmm

2008-10-14T20:38:00.003+08:00

Well... I am still not used to my new keyboard. Have to press a fraction more strength as compared to the old keyboard. Soooooo...

Lijin: If you have your HCL (hot chem labist) then I have my own CCD (go figure XD) and i choose him

(:

ITS SO HOTTTTT...
Perth suddenly went up to 30 deg... and the sun was so bright I almost died.
I should stay in Alaska.
Seriously.

Goal : ALASKA 2020!

Yeah, i wish. I dont really want to be in the same state as Sarah Palin... after her crappy interviews.

Goal: ANTARTICA ~~ALASKA~~ 2020!

Hahaha
Well internet sucks now. Its so unstable. And slow.

Sighh
Stocked up on instant oats and Soy Milk (:
Just hope someone doesnt drink it too.

2008-10-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

The lonely note wafts in the air,
resounding throughout my troubled heart.
Though it is not accompanied by another,
It sings a song of grey.
The song is a song of no art,
But the lonely pianist would play no other,
for it is a song that truely reflects his soul.
The song plays its melancholic part,
And the heart continues to carry out its solitary journey further.

~

说好的幸福呢-周杰伦

2008-10-10T00:29:00.001+08:00

你的绘画凌乱着.
　　在这个时刻.
　　我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
　　甜蜜散乱了.

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了倦了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐

　　你的绘画凌乱着.
　　在这个时刻.
　　我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
　　甜蜜散乱了.

　　情绪莫名的拉扯.
　　我还爱你呐.
　　伴你断断续续唱着歌.
　　假装没事了.

　　时间过了走了.
　　爱情面临选择.
　　你冷了却了我哭了.

　　一开始的不快乐.
　　你用卡片拭写着.
　　有些爱只给到这真的懂了.

　　怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
　　开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
　　那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐

　　怎麽了. 你累了.说好的.幸福呐.
　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了.
　　我都还记得.

　　你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
　　我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了

　　只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐 !

I am tired. Of everything.
I realised I already lost him on Monday, not next monday.
Somehow I sit at the benches, thinking some kind of ray of hope would shine and attract his attention.

Yet I know its not possible.

I decided to go to areas that fit with his schedule.
I sit in the middle of the plaza to get your attention.
I stand near the lab to get a whiff of you, I am addicted to it.

Yet I know its not possible

And I am tired of waiting.

Yet I know its not possible.

New computer

2008-10-06T19:32:00.002+08:00

I dropped my old computer on fri.
The monitor's inverter spoilt.
Repairs would cause 700 aussie. ):

So i got a new computer.
sony vaio VGN-CR353.
):
doesnt match up to my old one.

Sigh.
I miss you VGN-FJ58GP.

Addiction

2008-09-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

Well.

My room is in a mess.
Because I am really slumming now.
My brain is fuzzed up with thoughts of you.
Its like being on eternal antidepressants.
Its my fault in the end, for expecting so much and nothing at all.

It's the Queen's birthday tomorrow.
But I still need to go to school.
Sigh.
Another day of over-expectations, where I find myself hating my ever working mind.

I got a bar of peppermint soap from Pim today, and it smells nice!....
But I haven't used it yet, (smells too nice to be used :3)
I really need the school internet, the internet sucks here.

I am sick of food.
Funny eh?
I lost the appetite to eat Japanese, Italian, Chinese, Western, Indian, fast food.
All because it all seems so bland now.
Sigh.

I think tonight is another sleepless night, because I can't stand to dream of him again.
This is the first time that I have dreamt so much about someone else.
It makes life more excruciating, and sad.

And before someone tries to SPECULATE, I am not goth, nor emo.
I just like the colour black and I am sad because fate by the Lord has made me to worry more than laugh.
Breaking down seems so easy, but then I refuse myself to do that.
Its such an easy way out, instead of solving it out.

But how to rid myself of such a feeling?
“...I Wanna Be Loved
いつかは　未来
最後の奇跡の中で
光と闇に抱かれて
心の空に
かすかな夢を見つける...
...窓の向こうには夜があるよ
輝くために
ずっと待っている
もういちど　灯り消せば
どこかに　あの星...”

sigh.

Talking

2008-09-28T19:42:00.002+08:00

Well, while taking a lift from Jason in his car, I realised that I don't talk.

Why?

Five Reasons Why I don't talk to you:

5. I am sick.

4. I haven't talked the entire whole day, so my voice box is "rebooting".

3. I am enjoying the viewwwwww.... Shhh don't disturb.

2. I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE YOUUUUUU!!!!

1. I have NOTHING to say to you. :S

Well. Yeah.

:S

Respond

2008-09-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

Its midnight,
My heavy heart keeps
My eyes still open.

My lashes are laced with tears,
My eyes are stinging,
But it can't possibly compare
With the pain in my heart.

Why do my dreams come back and mock me?
You always smiled with me then
It always hurts in the reality
When you look in my eye and
Don't respond back.

The moon edges on
As I think about you.
My email's empty
In wait of your call.

This waiting is killing me
Deep inside I know nothing will come
And I still wait expectantly
For a respond.

Is it so hard for someone to love someone?
Is it so hard to just give up on feelings?
I know the answer,
But yet I choose not to believe it

Yet I still believe that one day
We will meet
And you'll invite me back
Like Nature's embrace
When you finally respond...

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Crap lousy song/poem/neither.
Chemin! Help! Change something!!!

Be with Me - Olivia閻韋伶

2008-09-26T00:25:00.003+08:00

你的香味早已經悄悄擄獲我的心　不需要言語就能說明
我的眼神開始在你身上悄悄遊移　瀰漫誘人的氣息 OH YA
BABY 現在只需要你邁開步往前進　對我說
YOU WANNA BE WITH ME

用心去體會每一秒鐘的喜悅　去品嚐愛的滋味
THAT I WANNA KNOW WOULD YOU WANNA BE WITH ME?

這是一首為愛寫下的歌曲　甜言蜜語　就在今夜　只為你
隨著旋律搖擺著你的身體　讓愛　覆蓋你
只想在今夜和你相擁一起　拋開　所有的流言蜚語
THAT I WANNA HEAR YOU SAY THAT YOU WANT ME

今夜的鎂光燈　全都只為你亮起　讓所有目光　矚目你
別去想明天　將會發生怎樣的事情　只要記得　我愛你
愛情它本來就是場遊戲　別再費盡心思去為它定義
THAT I WANNA HEAR YOU SAY YOU WANNA BE WITH ME

這是一首為愛寫下的歌曲　甜言蜜語　就在今夜　只為你
隨著旋律搖擺著你的身體　讓愛　覆蓋你
只想在今夜和你相擁一起　拋開　所有的流言蜚語
THAT I WANNA KNOW WOULD YOU WANNA BE WITH ME?

my fire is waiting for a new tune
and my glass is waiting for some fresh ice cubes
i 'm just sitting here waiting for you to come
come on home and turn me on

這是一首為愛寫下的歌曲　甜言蜜語　就在今夜　只為你
隨著旋律搖擺著你的身體　讓愛　覆蓋你
只想在今夜和你相擁一起　拋開　所有的流言蜚語
THAT I WANNA HEAR YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
THAT I WANNA KNOW WOULD YOU WANNA BE WITH ME?
~~~

forgotten rituals and persistent ills.

2008-09-18T13:39:00.002+08:00

ARGHH....

I just realised that I forgot my ritual of wishing on 20/08/2008 at 20:08.
Its funny, that I used to wish on that day every year ever since my teacher in pri. 6 told us about that.
I guess in the middle of the worrying and hectic tests I forgot to wish. ):

Well, its not like it ever works. --

Hahaha... OMG... While I was pinning my fringe back just now, I realised that a Widow's Peak was emerging!
Ewww.
And contrary to people's belief that the Widow's Peak makes someone prettier, I find it really ugly.
It doesnt appeal to my innate sense of symmetry!!! :S

I like the new upate to Winamp, it allows Chinese and Japanese words! Finally.
And now I am switching to Winamp, because I can get better streams for web radio on it.

Was searching the web for moles on lips. And I got this: click
Hahahaha!

Significance of shapes in Moles

Round - A round mole signifies the goodness in people.

Significance of Moles based on color

Light Colored Moles - Those who have light colored moles are considered lucky.

What Moles on your body parts means?

Arms

Moles on arms indicate that the person is polite, diligent and will lead a happy married life.

Noooooo.......... I dont want to get married!

Foot

People with a mole on foot are easy going and laid back. They need to exercise to stay healthy.

ummm.... guilty?

Knee

A mole on left knee signifies that these people lead an extravagant lifestyle.
.... :S
Lips

People with a mole on lips always aspire to get ahead in life.
i guess that must be true.

Hahahaha....welllll I am taking it with a pinch of salt. And perhaps pepper.

Its so freaking cold now, where's the sunnnnnn!!!!

~~

2008-09-16T21:31:00.004+08:00

Its Saturday midnight
I woke up from a bad dream
to the sounds or silence

I could touch you in that dream
Although it felt so right
It was a nightmare

XC crap inspiration fizzled out.

---------------------------------------

I can't believe the god knows what's its name song that goes like "I kissed a girl and liked it" is right before "Kiss from a Rose". Its like a non-song to a song. Yes, I think the former is not a song. Thank goodness I don't even try to follow the english song market. *phew*

Anyway, I went on a tirade because I was pissed at nothing just now. I shall not say, but I especially bitching about someone to my mum. (: (XP)

MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

kk.

Well. That was some hollow laughter.

I might kill for amani's phone.

Why doesn't sony ericsson export these types of phones overseas???????? I really want one!!!
I would have bought this instead of my current sony ericsson one..... ):

): ): *sulks and ~~pouts~~*

Now, lets get me some japanese eye candy to see.

“。。。我们所知，头发是容易着火的。。。”

2008-09-16T00:23:00.003+08:00

哈哈，eunice记得Pastor Sam所说的这一句话，听了十分很好笑。

（：

看了Code Blue的四节，觉得心里的心酸开始承受不了，只好停止。
Code Blue的内容十分感人，有时会难过得半天会沉入一个不好受心情，真受不了！
但是还是舍不得不知道藍澤的救急医生前途。真是自灭。）：

Code Blue与House M.D而相比，Code Blue的内容比较深刻。可能是House M.D实在有太多的季，节，把House的成就变成一个平凡的事。咳。。。

现在很努力地专心复习，但是电脑的吸引力实在太强了！
喔，之前说过了要写歌词，但现在还事没完成。ごめんなさい！我实在太懒了。
我大概有个概念歌词要写什么，但是要找正确的字来形容我真正的感受实在太难，英文还是有这么的缺点。

啊！Bic的打火机实在太难用。。。连基本的大火也那么难，怎么把蜡烛着火呢？
可能这是澳洲的劝人不要抽烟的方法，不会用打火机，就别想抽什么屁烟吧！嘻嘻。
蛮有用，连我都不想用蜡烛了。。。

分心的时间到了！该回去复习。

A post, after a lonesome and frustrating break

2008-09-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

Monday is the start of my non-teaching studying break. Finally, I have time to do things that I did not manage to do properly, including studying, sleeping and brain training.

So, somethings that I learnt this week:

Fact: I switch off with something warm in my system.
Explanation: I don't know, I just realised that anything warm that I drink, be it a mocha or a hot chocolate, would lead me to nod at the lecturer at everything.

Fact: My bad habit of pissing people off with my tactless/sacarstic words are coming back.
Explanation: MM.... I have no idea too, why this is happening. ):

Fact: IT and co is in Perth this week today.
Thoughts: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I better not meet them on the streets. It will be C.A.M.E. (Civility, awkwardness, maddening, EXCRUCIATING). Fortunately they are leaving on Sunday, so I think I will not meet them in church. (I hope).

Fact: The only reason why some would like Bratz would be because they themselves are brats.
Explanation: Someone I know is. And who would like slutty girls in outfits that are way to mature for them? Theres a reason a 10 year old is a 10 year old and lets just keep it at that ok?

Fact: Hackett Hall hot chocolate is the BESTTTT!!!!
Explanation: It speaks for itself.

Fact: Its Pim's birthday tomorrow!
Thought: Hurrah!

Fact: Siwon is frustrated.
Explanation: Check out her blog.

Fact: There are more gay people everyday.
Explanation: You should understand it yourself.

Love You I Do

2008-09-09T17:19:00.003+08:00

I have this feeling of deja vu that I have posted it up before, but then I shall post it again.

Love You I Do - Jennifer Hudson

Never met a man
Quite like you
Doing all you can
Making my dreams come true

You’re strong and you’re smart
You’ve taking my heart
And I’ll give you the rest of me too

You’re the perfect man for me
I love you I do

Mm I love ya

I’ve never felt
Quite like this
Good about myself
From my very first kiss
I’m here when you call
You’ve got it all
And confidence like I never knew

You’re the perfect man for me
I love you I do

You’ve got a charm
You simply disarm me every time
As long as u drive
I’m along for the ride
Your the way
I said it before
There won't be a door
That’s closed to us
Putting all my trust in you
Cause you, you’ll always be true, Oh

I never could have known
This would be,
Oh you and you alone, yeah
Now for me
I know you’re the best
You’ve passed every test
It's almost too good to be true

You’re the perfect man for me
I love you I do

You’re the perfect man for me
I love you I do

(:

Well, I have been meaning to post in the blog, but with the recent state of events : ANHB1102 in class essay on thurs, internet outage!!! ~~lovesickness~~ and so on, I couldn't blog.

I have been working on a poem too, so I didn't feel like posting anything until I finished it. But then I got lazy. Yes I am lazy (really really really).

Well. I really love the candlelight version of すき by Crystal Kay and Sowelu on youtube, but then I can't get it as a sound format!!! ): Sowelu sounds ok in this song, but if you hear both of them sing When You Believe in the same tv show, you think that Sowelu sung marvellously. Sowelu was practically trying to outsing Crystal Kay (IMPOSSIBLE) and shouted during the song :S.
Lesson learnt: Don't try to outsing someone who can carry off a Whitney Houston song by herself.

So, we have Charlie Bond for CHEM1102, and it was so boring that I fell asleep right in the middle on enantiomers. ): And then when I sort of was in my half-asleep-awake stage, I stared at Vinh for about ten seconds, before I waved to him. During the staring moments, I was like, " ..... Do I know this guy ( He was wearing specs then).... I think I do..... sooo... hes looking at me.... like he recognises me.... so what do I do now?... Oh YEAH! WAVE!...." And my hand followed suit in 1 sec. == I was really so tired.
But after that lengthy and retarded long period of thinking, my brain went back to working mode and then I started drawing a bed with eyes and a mouth saying "I miss you!!!" I should get married to my bed.

What I want to achieve by the age of 30 (follow up from CM)

2008-09-04T22:18:00.004+08:00

I saw that chemin has decided to write that this list, so I am going to follow suit.

Age 30 the prime of life, I will be:

1. A doctor in Pathology(any biology related field)?

Yeah, I know, predictable. <_<>

2. Rightful owner of a US$150k per year pay cheque.Woah so much money

3. Owner of a BMW convertible.

Scratch Lamborghini, BMW's are much nicer shaped. Also because BMWs look more comfortable.

4. Get an assistant professorship in another country.

(Japan *hint hint*) Why go into the working society when you can continue learning endlessly at the university? (And get discounts off electronic stuff at staff rates?)

5. Travelled to Alaska and Antarctica.

And also possibly observe penguins for half a year? I don't know, but then observe the life forms in the land.

6. Get a patent for one of my work.

Yeah. MONEY MONEY MONEY. One day maybe I am going to patent one length of your genetic code.... >|D hahahahaha and then I will be rich! Then people would have to pay meee.... Well, if you think that is impossible, some company is trying that now. But at least a protein code?

7. Own pieces of land.

Yeah, dabble in the real estate market, and then get rich from en blocs. Then later on buy prime estate and then retire with a stable income with the uber high rent.

8. Build my dream house

Yeah, I want my house in ... San Jose? Or Colorado, wherever Aunt Fran was in. I absolutely want to have deer coming into my property. Then on that piece of land, I want the house to built within a 10 m boundary into the land. The house is to be made of glass walls on the exterior which I can observe the night sky or the waking sky. The garden would be filled with lavender and poplar trees so that the house would not be seen from the outside. ( I know, so hermit like right?) And of course a garage. And a driveway.
... in all, it just needs alot of money.

9. Travel the world.

Understood.

10. Be self-fufilled.

Be satisfied with what I have done during those 30 years. And be happy.

what i do when i take down notes while skyping....

2008-08-30T21:07:00.001+08:00

Yeah, in doodly mode.

Now I really want to go and bathe. :S

i want to draw frames of bunnies and place it on my head

2008-08-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

... I know totally random title.

But I am feeling that totally random feeling now. So. :*

I skipped my morning classes today.
Was totally drained in the morning, woke up to a womens' call at dawn.
Now am a bit woozy now.

I don't want summer to come!
(If I was in where jloh is, I would want it to (: )
Hahaha.
Crap I am so going to die here.
As in 30+ degrees!!!
I probably have a homeostatic system made out of chocolate.
(get it?... nvm)

I totally love my walkman.
(: Two days already and only one bar gone!
I haven't charged it yet!!
HELLO no everyday-charge-days!

.... Crap, my taskbar and windows explorer are hanging.
My computer is getting old~
Like me.... :S.
Well the HARSH reality of life.
Older, older, and poof!

Sandman by Neil Gaiman is nice!
It's slightly maniacal and emo, but then it really tells you wise lores of the past and of the present.
Its like a walking grandfather.

Sooo... lol whutttt?

2008-08-29T08:47:00.002+08:00

So......

I got my mp3 player. And it turned out to be surprise.
I ordered a 4GB player, and had gotten a 8 GB instead.
So now I can download lectures and watch it (:.
Also my entire whole song collection is inside ((((:.

I am totally skipping CHEM1104.
Yeah, I can't find any purpose in sitting in SSLT listening to an old lady talk while I simultaneously zone out 6 times in a minute.
The last lesson li jin was playing luminati on my phone.

I miss Broadway food.
But then I don't have the time to go there and eat.
:S Unless I walk there before I go home.
Which is very very mafan.

Lol, I was just thinking about abos.
The way that abos are described here are like Singaporeans in the past describing the oily man.

sea spray candles.

2008-08-26T19:50:00.002+08:00

AAAH... nice smells.

Well, I am going to get this tmrrrrr...
YAYY!!!

So, everything has been done. Procrastination, and what nots. All done.

It's such a shocker today, with the new Chem1102 lecture. He just made Kekule's snake sound like they were snakes on crack. Well, he doesn't seem particularly pleased with his line of work. That is rather sad. However, its like a mask to mask his devotion to teaching, especially since so he wants people to keep quiet so that others can listen. Which also forces people who don't want to listen to listen.

Well I am tired. Not writing anymore.

Procrastination 101

2008-08-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

Yes, my procrastination cycle has started.

1100h - Started on the lab report
.
.
.
1500h - Wrote first title
.
1600h - Rewrote title
.
.
.
1900h - Wrote headings for sections of the lab report.

..... *facepalms* Yes it has started. Now I have to do my best to concentrate. SIGH.

Tomorrow I have church, so I must do this quickly and sleep early!

..... My housemate is going clubbing for a singaporean event and I am not.

2008-08-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

Yup. My scentiments are exactly as stated on the blog title.

I feel so left out!
But its not like I want to club.
Personal values and choice before peer pressure!

So for people who wants to know WTF is the stretched bladder thing,

Yes, I did touch cadaver
Yes, I did touch an embalmed heart
Yes, I did touch the bones of Lucy and
Yes, I did touch an over-stretched bladder of a male which was cut open.

And yes I saw a few limp penises and hardened vaginas, but lets not go into it.

(Yeah, (bimbo accent)if you're so a NECROPHILLIAC, then you should totally go do human biology. In an accredited university where people bother donating their corpses to you)

Well, I skipped CHEM1104 and SCIE1106. Apparently the Justice of Peace certifying your documents doesn't cost anything at all. :S. Wow, my parents paid a few at the Australian High Commission. RIP OFFS.

So, I am craving for raw fish badly now. And I can't be appeased.
FEAR THE RAW FISH MONSTER!
Pfft.

I just paid for my Sony Walkman just now.
I hope everything works out well, as I just paid 150 bucks for it.....

update

2008-08-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

So...

Li jin: I didnt see HCl today. Although I had SCIE. But then he probably takes lab on thursday or something.

So next time i got SCIE lect i will help you stalk him for you. And find out what colour his boxers are. <_<

Hahah back to the real topic.

Theres a test of HB on thursday but I am so lazy. I havent started studying. :S.

I took a nap just now, and now i still feel hungry... whattttt..
Pim actually lost 6 kg while studying for the o's... O_O...
I cant do that.

Haha!
I just found out vanessa stays in st cats!
Lol, just saw the application for the tutorial classes on st cat's website.

Today's SCIE lect quiz was gayyyy.
How are we supposed to know that we cant write it 3'-_______-5'?
No one told us that it was a rule.
And then I made a careless mistake, that the polymerase went from the 5' to the 3' end. :S.
And also the questions were a linked with this principle, so I got many wrong.
And because I was talking about tropoisomerase to Pim this morning, then i got it mixed up with helicase and said that it stops supercoiling.
whatttt.
but prelab quiz was okay, just that i have lab report due next week
bummers.

I slept in CHEM1102.
yeah. I could feel piggott looking at my really obvious nodding actions.
its like the more i forced myself to wake up, the more tired i felt.
That really sucked.
And when he said that class was over my eyes went O_O.
wide awake.
yeah. selective sleeping habits....

so i should study.
But I am still in holiday mode..... sighhhh.
I want to sleep like a pig!!!

oh yeah! Black fingernails!!!!
just felt like painting one white line on my left index finger.

Colour Change!

2008-08-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

ITOSHIIHITO - Crystal Kay

So...... I dled CK's new album.
And I like this song.....
So if you dont listen to this song, YOU GO TO JAIL BAD BOY/GIRL!
(if you dont get the joke dont bother)

So today was totally late for church.
I thought i was able to get there on time....
till 106 appeared while 299 was letting me down at Victoria.
And it left without me.
:S.
So from next week onwards I will have a ride from Jason and Victor.
Whom I dont really know :S.

Bought white nail polish!
But the brush is so small, so i cant really spread it properly. ): So need to do double coating.

I just realised that most of the books that I borrowed I had already read it before.
damn.
Me and my forgetful 3 sec memory.
So, I have now 4 story books to sell.

Just remembered.
Shit Chem1102 prelab hasnt been done. RAHHHH.

k.
tata.

Saturday on a Toyota Rav4

2008-08-16T23:40:00.003+08:00

So, Keith, my homestay's bf, got himself a new car. Toyota Rav4. The car that I have been eyeing in Singapore, including the Lexus make of the same car.

So.... we went to Hillary Harbour.

Salt and water.

And it was nice. Actually going out on a Saturday with someone else.

The sea was soooooo blue. And the weather was so hot... Its really neurotic, the weather here.
So it was ranging a 22 deg, and now its like 9 deg, and the min temperature will continue dropping here.

Yeah going back into the topic.

There was a Emily the Strange + some other misc stuff shop. The bags were so nice!!!!!! Tempted to buy one, but then nahhhhh.

So basically we walked the entire harbour.

There was a fishing competition taking place then. And some guy got some............ mutant bass. Well maybe a black garoupa. I dont know, but i just know that it was massive. And then the guy was teaching the guy who caught it to cut it.

And some idiots diving into the harbour. The irony is that.... they were standing on this mini guard tower which had a very big sign saying " SWIMMING PROHIBITED". So they are either dumb or illiterate. I choose both. There was a jagged rock break water near the side for God's sake!

We talked to this kid who was sitting down there near the fishing competition. We thought the bucket was a bait bucket, but then it turned out to be a pail carrying a small fish. The kid said "Its a fish, I catched it. I catched it there!" Hahahahaha it was slightly funny, with the grammatical error.

And we went to eat gelato!!!!... The australians love their gelato. There were many flavours, but I chose Lemon Meringue Pie flavour. mmmmm. Really enjoyed it. (:

And then we went to the Scarborough Shopping Arcade, where someone was selling thick winter coats at $10. Its like their clearance sale is really clearance sales......

Haha! and we saw this Maltese-shitzu-pekingese? cross and it was SOOOOOO CUTE. Its cute as those Russ beanies.....And soft too. :3

And we left after that.

Um, if you bother to save the picture and zoom in, you will see this sail boat. But then these pictures were taken with my phone, so......

So we went to Keith's mother's house. She had a really nice garden. Probably because of all the ant hills there. I counted about 8. And they were on the driveway...... Quite an ant problem, eh?

We stayed in the car (me, helena, luissa) so we practially watched the sunset while exploring Luissa's iTouch. Which comes to me wonder about the practicality of the iTouch. As in you can get an iPod which will give you the same properties if your iTouch has no internet and an iPhone that gives you more with calls.

Point: Apple stop wasting resources to make in between products!!!

So, as I was saying, we stopped at Nando's to eat dinner. I think I ate something burnt just now. My throat doesnt feel as good now.

And then we went to Keith's apartment. To watch tv. -.- well foxtv. So.... we watched the first part of High School Musical 2 and then watched the Olympics. Which led me to fall asleep. Apparently the three of us all fell asleep after each other. And then we woke up and left the apartment at 11.

So here I am. A bit too alert.

testing

2008-08-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

trying feed for soup.

song game! (:

2008-08-05T20:50:00.004+08:00

01. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Can You Keep A Secret - Utada Hikaru

02. WHAT WOULD DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Just a Friend - Kana Nishima

03. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nue No Naka Yoru (Night when the nue howled) - Tomiko Van [sadddd.....]

04. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Ready Steady Go - L'Arc~en~Ciel [Wheeee]

05. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Kiss Kara Hajimeyou (Let's start with a kiss) - Arashi [OMG what kind of purpose is that?]

06. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Watashi to Warutsu wo (Dance with me) - Chihiro Onitsuka [lol. reminds me of some old movie where people danced for fun in the countryside of italy.]

07. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Valenti - BoA [Wtf?]

08. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hadashi no Cinderella Boy (Barefoot Cinderella Boy) - NEWS [um, whatttt?]

09. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
One Love - Arashi [When some guy sings this to me, yes I will. ]

10. HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard [ NOOOOOOOOO OMG WORST SONG FOR A LOVE LIFE!!!!!!!!! well at least still got time to make it right]

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Journey - w-inds [nice, i always think of moving]

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?
Mousou Chop - Ai Otsuka [omg I m delusional.]

13. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Guilty - Blue [........... oh shuddup.]

14. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Cherish - Ai Otsuka [Well, I have been feeling that for quite a while]

15. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Runaway Train - Arashi [Im going to be such a problem ~~child~~ adult in the future]

16. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Someday -Koda Kumi [ Oh no, cute, sweet, deep, hopeless love.]

17. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Good Man - India Arie [OMG. broken, estranged family song]

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
A Perfect Sky - Bonnie Pink

19. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
How's A Man Supposed To Change - Blue [ NOOOOOOOOOO. thats a VERY bad song to dance to]

20. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Amazed - Duncan James [WRONG SONG.]

21. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Action (Mr Joshua Edit) - Saint Etienne [ a bit workaholic? daredevil? its a lounge song.]

22. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Colorful - Yuna Ito [ Um out out out.]

23.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Michiyuki (suicidal lovers)- Kaori Hikita [I have a SECRET BOYFRIENDDDD!!!! not.]

24. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Sleeping Beauty - Tchaikovsky [weird just weird.]

25. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Natsu no Owari ni Omou Koto - Arashi [ i guess i will have my ups and downs.]

26. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?

Sha Hai Zi (Stupid Child)- Yan Wei Ling [I guess not. I dont know]

27. HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Koi Ni Ochitara (falling in love) - Crystal Kay [By falling in love darn.]

28. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
D-tecnolife - UVERworld [thats sad. very sad]

29. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Hanasanai (Don't Let Go) - Arashi [.... um..... i want to. cant i?]

30. WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE FOR YOU?
I'd Like To - Corinne Bailey Rae

31. HOW WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED?
Last Kiss - Crystal Kay [ whatttt....]

32. WHAT'S YOUR SIGNATURE DANCE SONG?
Time Will Tell - Utada Hikaru [Slow Song]

33. WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT THEME SONG?
Namida ga Afuretemo (The Overflowing Tears) - Crystal Kay [Um, yeah, maybe]

34. WHAT DO OTHERS THINK OF MY CURRENT THEMESONG?
A Whole New World - Koda Kumi feat Peabo Bryson [LOL BIG JOKE]

KissHug

2008-08-05T18:05:00.004+08:00

OMGGGGG
KissHug is so good.
And its the insert song for 花より男子!!!! ( funny how i cant find 子 in ご of the japanese input)

AAAHHH d(>.<)b XD... Funny now the blinking line for typing is gone. Oh wells. KissHug! <3

Anyway, I havent watch the live action for 花より男子.

BUT I DOWNLOADED THE SONG FOR IT!

YAYY!!!!!! hahaha

kk

lol, today talked to Pim, and she likes 山Ｐ!!!! YAY! fellow 山Ｐ fan! XD hahaha

And after SCIE1106 PUZZLING tutorial quiz that i failed BIG time, (Everyone seems to know what they are doing. As in the quiz was something else from the lab procedures!) I chatted with her and then went to Princess Road and Fairway street with her other friend, Joel, fellow Singaporean to ~~peep into empty houses for rent~~ to see the houses that Joel wanted to rent near the uni. One was über cool, like a kind of modern townhouse that one would pay close to a million in Singapore for.

Haha so funny. And today I didnt sleep for chem1102!!!! OMGGGGGGGG
moral of story: sit next to someone you know during lecture. Then you dont want to sleep.

HAHA! I m even happier now, that I have downloaded the entire whole aiko's single KissHug. :3

and lijin >_> switch house with me! dont stay near the school if youre going to miss all first lectures. <_< lucky you. can afford to skip class. <_<

75% cocoa chocolate = über!
non-sleepy lecture = über!
pokka peach tea = über!
clothes drying in one day = über!
getting new stationary = über!
nice aiko song = über!
happy feeling = über!
making new friends = über!
renewed hope = über!

Thursday

2008-08-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

Thursday is the first official day that I am going to start praying dearly for my life.

Perhaps I do not need to worry, but then Paul, Dad is making me worry.

Today's lesson for chem is ok.

I guess I should stop eating during the day, so that I wont fall asleep during lessons. Eating makes me sleep.

Sigh.

Life is sad. Especially when you are have no one to depend on.

I guess I hate the feeling of independence, but then I never really wanted to grow up, get a job and get a family (NO WAY).

I just wanted to travel through the boundaries of childhood and adulthood, swimming through the warm waters of dependence and innocence, living a life of soft security.

Sounds nice? Well, of course it does. Except that it doesnt really exist, unless you are born in the right family, circumstance.

Buts its nice to feel that way, no?

Thats the thought for today.

Anyway, I feel screwed. But I think Yonathon would feel even more screwed, cause he should know the girl's name better than me <_<. Yeah, I talked quite alot to her, and I can't seem to remember her name! OMG.

Luissa has been dancing for quite a long while. Shes like bipolar Siwon+energizer bunny+ very commercialised dance moves+girlishness.

Anyway, I want to move to somewhere nearer to the uni. But I will have to wait till I am 18.

I miss watching movies on tudou. Well I shall pacify myself with new Jpop (:

Darn jt and hx are jetsetting!!!!! I want to do that!

aiko's KissHug is out!!!! But OMG it takes so long to dl hereeeee! TnT

>< fan girl mode

2008-07-31T20:58:00.002+08:00

yamapi looks so good with curly hairrrrrrr!!!!

kyaaaaaa!!!!

lol

fangirl mode: complete.

gotta watch code blue soon.

(:

And I need to be freee!!!!!

Tmr i should go buy towels and pants. I need more pants.

And I need to wake up early tmr.

Today didnt have ANHB lesson. So i rushed out of house for NOTHING.

Damn.

And there wasnt prelab. So I stayed till 2 for NOTHING AGAIN.

<_< I should just stop being blur for once. ITs getting on my nerves.

and did my SCIE1103/2? PASSED!!!! But I missed the passing mark for IRIS by 1.5% so pissfying.

<_<

I wanna go outttttttt

And shop. for necessities.

Yeah I know, people hate shopping for these stuff, but i absolutely LURVE them.

And no, I m not housewife material.

Finally opening my bank acc this wednesday.

"ANYONE who wants to send me money can (:!"

*hint hint*

hahahahahaha!

So..... homestay making shepherds pie right now. it smells oily now :S.

I realised that I cant eat cos I will fall asleep during lecture an hour later. So weird.

I should sleep more.

Like now.

But I cant sleep.

just bathed.

HMMM.

well.

Skype was pretty bad, like every 2-3 mins I had to recall again. So crappy.

And I need to ask my dad to get msn in shanghai home pc to stop automatically sign me in.

grrr.

and.

I missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss 9 oclock closing shopping mall times.

sigh. 5's a little too early, dont you think? why not 6? 6 is more functional.

well. cant argue with other peoples' lifestyles.

test results

2008-07-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Hedonism	\|\|	10%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Humanitarian	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|	16%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Family drive	\|\|	10%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Honor	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Thriftiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%

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note

2008-07-30T19:54:00.002+08:00

i just realised HOW contagious SIWON is.

Yeah.

If you read my CBOX, you would have realised that SIWON has been saying that its SNOWING here.

Question: Is Perth snowing?
Answer: absolutely ~~FUCKING~~ not.

(see I m so irritated that SIWON is influencing her MISTAKES on other people)

yeah.

So today was brill, went for med checkup and got a COOL xrayyyyyyy

and then well... liquid oxygen is sooooo cool...

go search paramagnetism of liquid oxygen on youtube, they will have a vid on how liquid oxygen can actually be held by the paramagnetic forces of a paramagnet!

Yeah. organic chem experiments rock.
molecular and atomic orbitals in organic chem DOES NOT.

soooooooooo.....

I m going to resolute myself to be more studious. Mainly because I want to be subsidised for my tuition and to get someone to sponsor me i need to be outstanding= first in class. or top 3. lol.

I guess i have alot to beat, because my ANHB1102 class has about 300+ people. Yeah. I m basically screwed.

and my SCIE1106... sighhhhhhh they say there is alot of people. And I trust the lecturer for saying that.

and my chem.... OMG I HAVE CHEMICAL ENGINEERING AND WTV ENGINEERING TO BEATTTTT!!!!!!!! holy crap.

rahhhhh!
(my aspirations are screwed)

2008-07-29T20:04:00.002+08:00

Well whoever who got freaked out by my previous post, its my unpredictable mood swings that I normally keep inside. But now I feel better, because I know that I was panicking about NOTHINGGGGGGGGGG.......................................................

sheesh. Whats wrong with me..... (li jin, use your psych knowledge to help me!!!)

well home alone now.

marissa and louisa went to another person's house.
helena out partying/dinnering/whatevering

sigh.

I need friends.....

maybe i should talk to pim. she takes the same combo as me.

hmmmm.

SCIE1106 was shitty today. Because I forgot to get the unit manual. So i didnt read ahead. Butttttttttt (: quiz i got 0/2, but lab report 3/3 YAYYYYYYYYYY so i passed cos they are added together.

But the walk to QEII was so bad. Raining and far. I ran with Pim to QEII from ANHB1102.

ANHB1102 was quite fun, but then its because of all the weird strides the lecturer made and the lewd animations in the ppt.

sooooooooo night.c ciao

Sigh

2008-07-28T19:18:00.002+08:00

God is giving obstacles.

I need to recover.

I need to get my documents in order.

And my health checkup wthout the credit card paid for..

And to correct the Immigration department that I actually applied onshore.

OMG.

I want to just. Sit down. Watch the sun go down. And watch the world go by. And then slowly disappear.

Its unrealistic.

But its the happiest situation that I can think of.

Yesterday I thought it was over. I was so wrong.

This is the worst first day of school ever.

I should get drunk.

And that would be stupid. Really stupid.

So again, another thing that I set to do is dismissed. Just like my other failed projects.

Today I thought would be the first day of new beginnings. And a boulder is thrown my way.

I m getting very bad anxiety problems.

I need tranquilisers.

Sometimes I feel that I have depended on the wrong people too.

The one I trust didnt help any way at all.

Maybe I should just pray hard. Very hard.

And cry.

I hope tomorrow is a good day.

And I can once more forget about life. Me. And the future.

And by the looks of it, I think drugs would not be bad for me, but a prescription miracle drug now.

For now, the strength to smile is still here.

Laughter is no longer a sign of happiness, but a omen of obstacles to come.

Its true when they say "Laugh too much, Cry later."

Good luck everyone, who left for their unis.

Maybe you would not see me anymore. Maybe you will.

I just hope everything will go on smoothly from now on.

Smiling uses up more muscles now. Frowning is my natural state.

depressing tone to life

2008-07-27T20:33:00.001+08:00

I m so screwed so screwed so screwed.

Everything went on smoothly. Till.

CoE cannot be verified for visa.

Its invalid.

Shit.

I wanna die TnT

WLIIA

2008-07-22T18:37:00.002+08:00

hahahaha WLIIA

"what is the name of the upcoming band?"
"tern?...... arctic tern?"
"and what sound does the arctic tern makes?"
".....BBBBackstreet boys?"

LOLLLLLL

Sinus Singapore

2008-07-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO FAST INTERNET!

XD so happy.

haha

Leaving.

2008-07-21T15:34:00.002+08:00

Last few hours in Shanghai. Feels... weird.

Farewell Shanghai!

Meet you in 2018? NO idea.

its still....

2008-07-21T00:09:00.000+08:00

Just checked and still found this.

Application status

The general stages for the application status are
Application received --> Application processing --> Outcome of application

Your current status is Application processing.

NUS go update your system!!!!!

homestay

2008-07-20T20:31:00.002+08:00

よかた。。。

Provided are two meals per day, breakfast and dinner from Monday to Friday; with three meals a day provided on weekends and public holidays; a single room; furnished and access to laundry facilities .The current homestay fee is A$220 per week payable 4 weekly in advance. This fee covers charges for electricity & gas but not telephone calls or internet.

phew.

but that means 1hr travelling time. I better apply for dorms.

NO INTERNET! I hope they have some kind of plan :S.

nauseic thoughts

2008-07-20T02:48:00.005+08:00

.... Well.
Its 2.49 am now.
I have been awake for 48 mins now.
I have very bad sleeping habits, no?

Now im deliberating between AVG and AVAST... ( if you dont know what are they, they are free antivirus programs)

I have one day to finish my girl PS painting. Which goes on very slowly.

My eyes feel puffy, which is very very very unbearable.

Sigh.

Im still panicking inside for my tickets to Perth. Apparently I cant get them issued. Qantas is trying to play a stupid joke on all of us. RAHHHH.

Now its the best time to play the song ひとり.

ひとり－中島美嘉
Translation by: Jonathon Wu

The streets dyed in crimson red
The shadows on the pavement
That picture of us
Where did it go to?

Silently passing by
In the middle of the season
The only one left
Is me...

Gently
Displaying my weakness
It was possible,
Even though I didn’t think so
It was a
clumsy love [we had]

Just one more time
If the two of us can just return to that time
Without being mislead I
Embraced you
[Please] don’t let go

The night dyed in black
Hugging my knees
I think back upon
The day you came over

Surely I was childish
I didn’t see it [at first]
I say, the name of love is
Understanding

At that time
My chest was pilled up
Even those
Repeated memories
The disolved
Without even a sound

Just one more time
If I can just return to that one night
I embrace your back
When you try to walk away
[And then] I stopped pulling you back...

When I was so selfish
I told myself it was the solution a hundred times
Soon it will be alright
I keep on going, waiting, all by myself

Those painful memories of you
You lived on and found someone to be with
There’s no misery for anyone but me
But even now
I can’t forget [you]

Just one more time
If the two of us can just return to that time
Without being mislead I
Embraced you
[Please] don’t let go

Its a nice song to listen to alone.

I am currently listening to 鬼束ちひろ who sounds really really like AI. But with a jazz sound. And every song makes you want to cry. Well. want to. but no.

月光(Moonlight)－鬼束ちひろ
Ｔｒａｎｓｌａｔｉｏｎ－ＴｅｒｅｓａＫｏ

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

My stride succumbs to a sudden gust of wind
It seems like I’ll fall any moment
But these chains won’t allow it

Having surrendered up my heart to you
My feelings for you now lay scattered about
I still don’t know how to pick them up

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

Talk more about your ‘reasons’
Until I fall asleep

I’m swathed in medicine that doesn’t work
Here, there is no sound,
What should I believe in?

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought: I have no place anywhere

Discomfort, a bitterly cold wall,
What will the next thing to weaken me?
Don’t reach out your hand, even at the end
You, of all people, will rescue me

From the silence

Time will speed the pain

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought
I have no place anywhere

Sigh.

Money money money, its a rich man's world

2008-07-17T20:54:00.003+08:00

So, I m currently on a loan from my parents with no interest. Good? Yes.

So as calculated, if I take bachelor's degree (in AUS$):

course fees 3 yrs	24k X 3 T_T
	total	74K
	care giver's and homestay fee	1.05K
	homestay rent	.22k X 52 X 3
	total (homestay)	45K
	visa	.6k
	true total	120.65k
	Bachelor Pay	1.5k
	years to pay it off	12.5 yrs

If I take honours:

course fees 4 yrs

24k X 4 T_T

total

96K

care giver's and homestay fee

1.05K

homestay rent

.22k X 52 X 4

total (homestay)

45.76K

visa

.6k

true total

142.81k

Bachelor Pay

years to pay it off

7.8 yrs

The numbers of years that you need to spend paying off is based on if you take exactly half of your pay for allowance. a month.

TnT now i am paniking, cos the only flight to Perth is by myself. TnT

I m seriously need to take tranquilizers.

Darn you extra thick zonealarm firewall

2008-07-16T21:57:00.005+08:00

Yeah. apparently all these internet troubles was not because I fiddled with the TCP/IP settings. But because Zonealarm was so good that it blocked EVERYTHING. Whee~

Well. So now internet is back, I am taking for granted the internet access, posting what i feel like. So.

PICTURESSSS!!!!

First, at the junction of Yan An Road where the Yan An Highway splits into two different places, one to XJH and the other to downtown......

HORSIESSSSS

Kite flying at Zhongshan Park. We were run down by the heat, and were ... sort of tired.

Go higher, go HIGHERRRRR!!!

The following day I took this from my balcony. Which is big but have no use.

Ooh, it looks like a resort from far (:

The same day, when we (me, siwon, chemin, chris) went to xjh and then later went to Chemin's house.

on the way.... at the upper end of Wu Zhong Road nearer to XJH.

We sat a taxi to Chemin's house

On the way: oohhhh reflection!

So we played Wii with Chemin and her family. Haha six girls in the house (excluding her mother)+ one wii = alot of noise and fun!

These photos were taken on the way back.

buildings near xintiandi

abit blur cos was moving in a car.

On Yan An Highway near Gubei

This is random.

Cheap ethanoic acid/ vinegar looks like this when left to evaporate

square crystals! what do you give?

clearer

someone pinch me

2008-07-16T12:46:00.002+08:00

Dear Miss Ng

Please find attached your offer letter. The original will be couriered
to you later today.

Kind regards,

Gwennie

_____________________________

so this is actually happening. My father doesnt want me to attend orientation. I at least want to arrive on friday, so that i will have leeway to do whatever those people did in 5 days on friday. Now i sound like some kind of cyborg crazy woman.

Internet is down for both coms. And I have no idea why it cant receive any information...

I need some help. not really, i need ALOT of help.

Someone ~~pinch~~help me!

OMG SQUISHED

2008-07-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

Well, during the duration that I didnt blog this happened:

computer got confiscated for overusage
but then internet was so crappy anyway my router spoilt and my computers could log on but not into the internet. So angry.
Then I got my computer back and got the internet fixed. Then realised that UWA wasnt going to reply so called them. Realised that it was pretty late for me to call them. Found out that they didnt receive my email. So was sort of rejected as it was late. So I was asked to take the Feb intake. (internet was still working)
Then father got slightly incensed because he thought that the admission officers thought that I was China Chinese. So went onto make a big fuss.
This morning he called them and got them to reconsider. And they wanted my certified results scan. So I went back to the Post Office that I went to earlier in the morning to send my certified results by snail mail and got it back to scan. And then they said that they were going to give me a standard offer. O_O. I m still in shock.
And also, which means that 1. I have approx less than one week to pack. 2. And to get homestay. 3. And get a visa. 4. And ORIENTATION starts next mon. Which I cant attend fully. Shit.

So tell me, WHAT AM I GONNA DO!!!!??? I had practically already resigned myself to a gap year full of work to earn my living expenses. But then. This happens. I think i need to sleep more so that I can think properly.

Thank You God!

2008-07-07T02:07:00.002+08:00

(: Thank You! Thank You!

Funny, yet my heart is still not at ease. In fact, my heart flutters like first love ( yeah I know, ridiculous exaggeration).

I can't thank God enough. This is purely by His grace that led me to get this marks.

However, one cannot deny that I could have gotten higher. Because I simply did not add any effort in TOK and EE.

I should start applying for homestay. Now the next obstacle is for me to pass is the application to UWA.

My father is trying to ask me to reconsider my attachment to UWA, because he wants me to go to Melbourne instead. :S.

Weird, the panadol I took took away my headache, along with my sleepiness.

So, I guess that its really goodbye to the school, the happy moments at the rooftop garden trying to kill skin cells and melanin, the crazy times in the classroom where we watched endless movies and the episodes of project runway, to the times where we flew the kite and got it stuck on the pipe lining of the school roof, to the times when we tormented Benny with care-bear cheerfulness, to the times we laughed at each other.

I hope to go back to the school one day, to see the current foundation of the neighbouring building become a building, with each metal foundation wire charting the acheivements we have attained and obstacles crossed, building up our life stories.

Now I m really delirious.

Currently hooked on this song

2008-07-04T22:38:00.002+08:00

St Germain - Vanessa Paradis

St. Germain - Vanessa Paradis

Pour un exil
Ce petit bout de femme t'emmeneras loin
Tout est permis
J'ai mis mes pas dans les siens
Elle est bien le soleil
Puisque tout tourne autour d'elle
Petite merveille
Pas si facile
D'etre aussi pure dans un monde qu'il est moins
Mille et une symphonies
Qu'elle inventera en un rien
Enfin le bonheur
C'est toutes les couleurs
De son coeur
Tu donnes gout a la vie
Je t'avoue je t'envie
T'es tout c'qui m'donne envie
M'donne la vie
Melody
Je m'adoucis
Quand je m'rends compte qu'au fond elle m'aime bien
Pour un de ses sourires je f 'rais
Le tour de la terre sur les mains
Aux nouvelles des etoiles
Elle fait briller son ame
Quand l'jour s'enflamme
Tu donnes gout a la vie
Je t'avoue je t'envie
T'es tout c'qui m'donne envie
M'donne la vie
Melody

Zhongshan Chronicles

2008-07-04T16:00:00.003+08:00

lawl, went to Zhongshan road this morning to meet Chris and Siwon to fly kite.

But we failed MISERABLY.

hot day+ small wind+ stubborn kite= Sad Chris Michelle and Siwon ):

Haha, but got to eat cold stone (:

Mint Mint Choco Chocolate Chip (:

Haha!

And then, the main event came.

So question: How fast can you piss 5(+1) people off at once (with a partner)?

Answer: just 30mins-1hour

Yeah. We did exactly that (Siwon and I).

So Siwon was approached by this middle aged lady who was advertising for this beautician company from hong kong. And then upon hearing that they would give free facial wash, Siwon went. And I too, because I thought they were giving those small packets and bottles of samples -.-

Obviously, I was wrong. So they went ahead and washed my face and talked about how blackheads were a problem. Then, BAM! their sales pitch came in. They begin talking about how the blackheads would become like a tumour. (Yes it will. Thats because it will grow.) Its not like I didnt know (I learnt it in a course in Sec 4) so i simply switched off my brain and pretended to nod in agreement every pause she made. Thank goodness Chinese does that to me everytime. So basically, they went on and went on. SO basically the product just makes the blackheads crawl out by themselves. (creepy)

So first went onto the "filial" tactic. I simply told them that I'd have to consult my mum first. Which is true. And works on about 75% of the population. BUTTTTTT they were so persistent, and went on saying that how my mum will want my skin to be flawless too and she wouldn't know my wants and needs. Basically insulting my mum's efficiency in her maternal job.

So they got their GM in. Scary. Not. She was this Anhui person, so I could not really sympathise with her. She went onto talk about how her niece went to study in Singapore. And then got herself many angmoh friends and went onto study in Malaysia. And then, the sale pitch again. So, again I refused. Refused and refused. And then she had told me that my eyebrows were slightly connected and wanted to pluck it for me.

No one plucks my eyebrows. NO ONE.

So now back to the topic, so I decided to go onto the ever so great INDIVIDUALISM track. So I said that my eyebrows were part of me (didnt they know that connected eyebrows= stubborn and short tempered person? Naive people). And then they suddenly switched the topic back to the blackheads, said that so blackheads are part of me. So I got slightly pissed and just kept quiet.

But by JOVE! Siwon smsed me from the other room. YAYYYYYY!!! So I pretended that she was my mum and then "she" had called me from Hongqiao and asked me to go back there immediately to gather, so I had to go soon.

And they got quiet and then left me to this girl to finished washing my face (: . So cool. I swear, there was some kind of "good cop bad cop" role going between the three who were in the room.

When they finished, I saw 5 grumpy people sitting at the reception. YAY! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!!!! And there, we made the beautician lose money today!

So if you're wondering, whos the other +1? Well, that was Siwon's mother. Because Siwon told her that we might be going back to eat lunch. And she had cooked lunch for us. Darn. So she was slightly pissed at us. :S Well, win some lose some. But the food that she cooked was really good, especially the carmelised carrots and onions with beef and tofu. TOFU... sigh, i have to cut down the intake of soya products, otherwise i might get thyroid cancer. ): But tofu's so tasty. Sigh.

Night Afternoon at the museum

2008-07-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

Hello... Currently Siwon and Chris are at 美罗城 starbucks drinking earl grey with 4 small cups of ice accompanying them.

So TODAY... went to the Shanghai Natural Museum! (すごい！<--- lol i m inserting my own audience comments) So basically i went there to see the DINOOOOSSSS!!!!

Theres supposed to be a nice picture here, but because of some weird html problem, I cant put it properly, so until then see the rest! (:

Yeah... :3 dinos.

The brachiosaurus(?) (i cant remember the name shit...)

And... unfortunately we didnt get to see a stuffed mammoth.

Dino Eggs!

Who wants icecream!!!!

Me!!!!!

And the animals....

hedgehoggggggg

leopard cubbbbbb

MOOOOOOOOOOse

LOL. i liked this..... its called a Wolverine

There not so tough now, Wolverine?

Got this really funny picture.... or a kind of turtle

I dub thee, THE WIGGG!

BEAR!!! Run!!!!

Lolll I prefer them like this:

(before PETA comes after me, I meant death by natural causes, deceased, expired.)

refurnishing~

2008-07-02T23:01:00.005+08:00

So....

I went on a recustomisation spree. @_@

I redid everything that I could. And i feel good. LOL

MY CBOX IS THE BESTEST!!!!!!!

:3

Maybe I should change my font to all green. :3 then i will feel better.

Yesh i shall!

Lol

I m practically talking to myself.

SO....

CHANGE I SHALL!

Update: Few mins later

So... YAY! green text!!!!

Trying to work on flash skills right now. Especially when i have more time now. And then try to finish a movie.

Somehow me not going to school now gives me this really really weird feeling. :S

Tomorrow will be going to the natural museum. YAY me!

Looking back at my previous blog posts, i feel extremely.... relieved. Because this blog has changed from a rant blog to a .... self improvement/thought/happy blog. My old blog was really dark. really really dark. So I am growing (so it seems and I hope :D)

The road of enlightenment is fun, especially when there is God to protect you and guide you back to Him whenever you stray. Because of His grace, I have learnt and continued on with little big obstacles possible.

Yeah, whoever who did not know that I believed in God, you do now.

Looks like Mozilla Firefox Dictionary does not agree with past participle tense. :S.

Chemin watched The Secret. As in the documentary that earned many people's cheers and jeers. According to the video, a man who did a Dream Board of his dream house in his room ended up having almost the same house almost a decade later. Sounds nice. *starts drawing out a picture of a travelling professor* XD.

Leaving.

That's all that we have in common. Somehow, some one will leave you during the course of your lifetime. And you cant stop it. During this time, you switch/seek dance partners to dance the rest of your life. And like this you branch out into different areas of the earth and also connect branches with the other, yet, still retaining the old branch. Maybe, just maybe, sometimes you think that the old branch would drop and decay, but then you realised that no matter what the branch will still be there, connecting you and the other node together. Like this, you would get over leaving someone that you have remained close to for a few years. And that is the tree of relationships.

桜色舞うころ

(When the cherryblossom colors flutter)

桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり
押さえきれぬ胸に立ち尽くしてた

若葉色萌ゆれば想いあふれて
すべてを見失いあなたへ流れた

めぐる木々たちだけが
ふたりを見ていたの
ひとどころにはとどまれないと
そっとおしえながら

枯葉色染めてくあなたのとなり
移るいゆく日々が愛へと変るの

どうか木々たちだけは
この想いを守って
もう一度だけふたりの上で
そっと葉を揺らして

やがて季節はふたりを
どこへ運んでゆくの
ただひとつだけ確かな今を
そっと抱きしめていた

雪化粧まどえは想いはぐれて
足跡も消してく音無きいたずら

どうか木々たちだけは
この想いを守って
「永遠」の中ふたりとどめて
ここに生き続けて

めぐる木々たちだけが
ふたりを見ていたの
ひとどころにはとどまれないと
そっとおしえながら

桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり
あなたへの想いをかみしめたまま

When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone
Standing exhausted, I can’t cut off these feelings bottled up inside

When the color of new leaves shake, feelings overflow
I lost sight of everything and drifted towards you

The trees around us told us in silence
That we would both see:
People don’t have to be limited to one place

When the withering leaves change color, I am next to you
And as the passing days fade, our love changes

But please, let these trees
Protect these feelings
Silently rustling your leaves above us,
Just one more time..

Before long, the seasons will pass
And we will be taken somewhere else
But right now, there’s only one thing I know
Embrace me, silently

Covered by the snow, the feelings get lost
The footprints vanish, sounds disappear in vain

But please, let these trees
Protect these feelings
So that, frozen in eternity
We may live on here

The trees around us told us in silence
That we would both see:
People don’t have to be limited to one place

When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone
Savoring my thoughts of you

BLogger BLogger blues.

2008-07-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

So... I decided to become a loyal person to petitmall till I go to Australia. Meh.

Hahahahahahahahaha

SO i got a stress ball from Vietnam from my aunt. ( I'm half expecting my cousin to get something better, but feh, got used to it)

Today's sky is good. In the sense that it was a different colour than normal.

And also because half the sky was dark and half was light. (:

So basically, I got a tablet.... SHINY BAMBOO ONE!!!! (: hahaha so im pretty happy.

So... theres like ...... about 5 days to IB results[emoji:510] abit worried.

But:

I will get 35+ and go to UWA
I will get 35+ and go to UWA
I will get 35+ and go to UWA

( I didn't copy and paste this! <_< Every sentence used up 2 ATP! [my guess])

頑張ってね！

有賀とみんなさん！

2006－2008 was fun!

chat between me and li jin

2008-05-03T20:07:00.003+08:00

				lijin ♥ {school}				xD
				lijin ♥ {school}				WHY YOU SLAP MEEEEEEE T_T
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				because you call me retarded! -.-oo
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahahahahahaa
				lijin ♥ {school}				not right meh
				lijin ♥ {school}				and why you never put picture oneeeeee
				lijin ♥ {school}				as in
				lijin ♥ {school}				of your face
				lijin ♥ {school}				on your dp
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				..........
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				thats because some people in my msn list i dont know
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				and also, ...... i am NOT retarded
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				i m CRAZY!
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				zz
				lijin ♥ {school}				-.-
				lijin ♥ {school}				OH YA HOR
				lijin ♥ {school}				YOU IS MEEXIAO
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				aiyaa
				lijin ♥ {school}				don't need put WHOLE FACE
				lijin ♥ {school}				can put ABITT
				lijin ♥ {school}				mah
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				...
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				dun want
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				WHY NOT T_T
				lijin ♥ {school}				put lehhhhhhh
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				.../
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				i dont have any on my comk
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				>_>
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				com*
				lijin ♥ {school}				WHY NOT!
				lijin ♥ {school}				with your friendssssssssss don't have meh
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				.../
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				no
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				lol
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				on fb
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				lijin ♥ {school}				KOPE IT DOWN
				lijin ♥ {school}				put it as your dp
				lijin ♥ {school}				!!!
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				...
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				WHYYYYYYYYYY
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				TnT
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				cause i never see you for 92384710942104983409184092810924823 years already
				lijin ♥ {school}				xD
				lijin ♥ {school}				oh shit
				lijin ♥ {school}				i sound like some psycho
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				......................................
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				yeah
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				you do
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				PUT LA
				lijin ♥ {school}				no wait
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				///
				lijin ♥ {school}				lets restart the convo
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				?
				lijin ♥ {school}				hello
				lijin ♥ {school}				how are you
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				hello
				lijin ♥ {school}				ASL
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				...
				lijin ♥ {school}				HAHA1
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				(weirdo)
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				LOL
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				lijin ♥ {school}				lol
				lijin ♥ {school}				ASL PLEASE
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				..... haix
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				do we have to go through this?
				lijin ♥ {school}				17 f asut
				lijin ♥ {school}				HAHA
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				....
				lijin ♥ {school}				standard procedure of a psycho
				lijin ♥ {school}				ROFL
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				...
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				eee
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				psycho
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				blocks lijin
				lijin ♥ {school}				noooooo
				lijin ♥ {school}				bu yao
				lijin ♥ {school}				LAI LAI
				lijin ♥ {school}				talk tome
				lijin ♥ {school}				im not wolf
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				....................
				lijin ♥ {school}				im sheep
				lijin ♥ {school}				MEEEEEEHHHHHH MEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHH
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				you sound like a paedo now.
				lijin ♥ {school}				ROFLROFLROFL
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				no lor
				lijin ♥ {school}				im so innocnet
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				yeah
				lijin ♥ {school}				i only like kids
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				very much like it
				lijin ♥ {school}				xD
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				...........
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				<_<
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				lol
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				wolf come out of sheeps clothing!
				lijin ♥ {school}				mei you!
				lijin ♥ {school}				AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH
				lijin ♥ {school}				runs away
				lijin ♥ {school}				runs back
				lijin ♥ {school}				"i forgot my sheep skin..."
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				..........
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				-.-
				lijin ♥ {school}				very ex one
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				<_<
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				i m so going to put on blogger
				lijin ♥ {school}				FENDI you know
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				XD
				lijin ♥ {school}				hahahahahahahaha
				lijin ♥ {school}				you got blog meh!!!
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				yeah
				lijin ♥ {school}				WHY NEVER TELL MEEEEEEEE
				lijin ♥ {school}				walao
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				i went back to the old one
				lijin ♥ {school}				you evil piggg
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				OINK
				lijin ♥ {school}				what old one??
				hands so cold the touchpad cant feel it.				MUAHAHA

nice

2008-05-02T01:36:00.003+08:00

プロポーズ大作戦SP

2008-05-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

Lol, watched it as a final exam treat.

When I watched it, I felt so much happier, egging on both of them to get married. :3 haha!

too bad, really wanted to see them have their wedding in spain. oh well, money is important too.

funny thing, was that during the show I was thinking constantly, that 長澤まさみ had uneven eye bags. (her left is bigger than the right) S: lol. I shouldnt think about it because my eyebags are small, in fact not visible in normal conversation distance. Unless you stare hard at it.

and that 平岡祐太, the one that acted as 幹雄 is an absolute 美少年when he wear specs. >.< haha, his site shows quite unflattering photos of him. He looks best when he doesnt look at the camera. (: I m thinking too much.

Doing maths, and I feel abit sad, because i dont know how to do most of the vector/complex number questions. I think i should concentrate on them more then.

(yamapi's new hair style looks nice, but then i still have to say, when the wind blows strongly at him, his hair(old hair style) still goes back to the same position. no camera tricks involved. and gels. XD)

meme

2008-05-01T18:27:00.003+08:00

So, I am back to blogger. And I got tagged on this memes. Go do it, and i wont read. XP

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

Well. I just break up with him and move on. I would be sad, but then he already betrayed me. So no use trying to get back with him.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to help someone, and die early in the midst of my happy/exciting/blissful prime.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
I havent even thought of settling down into a family. That would restrict me. Maybe a quiet affair, on an Irish cliff? I dont know.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

Who isn't? No one's life is fixed. Foolish is the one that thinks so.

5. What's your ideal lover like?

Someone who manages to captivate me, and is able to capture my heart in a small action. No use trying to love someone that I have to get use to.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

Loving someone and not getting the love back. This love is pure (unless I go psycho and try to ... drug/kidnap/stalk the guy.... which most probably wouldnt happen).

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

I will wait. But not chase him (no use pushing yourself on someone!). Its the feeling of being in love that is enough to make me happy.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Look above. Dont ask repetitive questions.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

Yes. Daily worries and the feeling of being stuck.

10. What are some of the weirdest habits you have?

I prefer cooking for myself than others to cook for me. Also, I enjoy eating dinner at 4+. Another is that I have too many.

11. Is being tagged fun?
If it brings fun.

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
Ditch the friend and the boyfriend. The end. They should have the EQ to explain it to me first.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?
... I dont want to say.

14. What kind of person do you think I am?
Someone that should get a life? And I dont think that this should be called a meme, go look up on wiki.

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

..... single and rich. Although the nice stories about how the married couple get out of their financial crisis is tempting, I am hardly marriage material. It wouldnt be happy.

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react?
I rather remain it that way. No use trying to appeal to someone who wouldnt take the time to know everyone.

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes. unless its dying...

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
dont pick. And dont let your affections be known. And let fate/your attraction help you choose.

19. What type of people do you hang around with?
.... People i can get along with. birds of the same feather flock together.

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?

Laugh, and then tell them about it. And tell others.

I wont tag anyone to do this meme, but then have fun doing it. Go, spread it around and infect the world!

BIRTH MONTH

Pick your birth month and cross (strike) out what doesn't apply to you. To strike out you use the S tag. So for the cross out you would surround the "strike out" with ~~strike out~~ . Then post the whole list for the next person or link back to here.

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JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive.Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. ~~Unique and brilliant~~. ~~Extraordinary ideas.~~ Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. ~~Can become good doctors.~~ Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. ~~Knows how to dig secrets.~~ Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. ~~Patient.~~ Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. ~~Determined. Never give up.~~ Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. ~~Motivates oneself.~~ Does not appreciates praises. High-spirited. ~~Well-built and tough.~~ ~~Deep~~ love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. ~~Homely. Hardworking. High abilities.~~ Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

change of site

2007-09-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

hmmm changing to echoesechoing.tumblr.com

emoness.

2007-09-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

I m getting over him. I have to. Otherwise i will become worse. I will have to drown myself in work if i have to. Everything has to do with my "Oedipus" complex. I hate my genes.

I need a new hobby. Something like running around like an idiot. Touch rugby? But then i would then have to stay up late at night and pay extra for touch rugby (cos of transportation) being stuck in the middle of nowhere in the "city" is stupid without subway is stupid. I wont take the bus, because no one is really willing to show me. And its really really retarded at times. And dirty. I will never look at SBS the same.

I m going back on the 4th. Which is near. I m supposed to be happy, but then i realise that the SATs are coming. Which makes me emo again.

I really dont know whether i am over him. I m over him right? I dont know. It didnt hit me as hard as it did last year. Which is good. I hope it would go off like it did before. Quickly.

Theres no school tomorrow. Cos of typhoon Winpha. "pha" makes it sound like a name straight out of Mr. Evanno's diary. If he has one. But then it would be written in french, so doesnt make sense.

I think that sometimes I should be less observant and be better in my studies. Its a curse. A very bad one. I m too sensitive to others. It got me really bad when i moved here. Maybe i never truely realised my true sensitivity because i was very very brutally blunt when i was in P1 and there were alot of familiar faces in S1 as there were 12 people from my old school whom i mostly know already. Now, its bad. I miss everyone.

Renewal
I woke up this morning,
Finding myself without,
That steel chain,
That connected me with you
And made me feel hollowed throughout.
This love,
So demanding,
Wanting me to give,
And give,
And give my all
To a blank wall.
With each tug,
The chain reopens the wound
That I bound,
Thinking that I will be alright again.

I cant continue this. Its crappy. Maybe I will improve it later. Later.

Kat-tun - you

2007-09-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

I had this song in March i think, but then i only left it till now to find out the real meaning... so this is the meaning. Its surprising deeper than it sounds.

KAT-TUN - YOU
Translation by Fantasiimaker

I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I wanna be your lover

That transparent smile that I can seemingly reach if I stretch out my hand
it even twinkles, it’s so precious that
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

These feelings are unable to betray you
even if I get hurt, I don’t mind
I can only heatedly show you my heart

*I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I want to share just one dream with you
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I want to wrap you up softly and protect you

There’s no need for decorated words
being strategic and such doesn’t suit me
there’s nothing that I’m hiding
I can’t take my eyes off you baby

There are no lies in these feelings
about the same as the blue of the sky
the beating of my heart from gazing at you now
I don’t want to run from it

I don’t need anything else but you
no matter what kind of sadness, we can get through it
I want to be holding the person important to me
the heartbeat that starts from the two of us

*repeat

[rap]

We don’t need to pretend or anything
because there’s a tomorrow
take out your courage
it can become freedom

Getting past solitude, I’ve finally come across
a miracle that’s being called out by angels
recognize my caring, allow my love
unfasten your heart and come to me

*repeat

Two becomes one…

-----------------
KAT-TUN – YOU

あなたのために生きていいかな？
あなたを好きになっていいかな？
I wanna be your lover

[rap]

手を伸ばせば届きそうな　透き通るその笑顔
瞬きさえ惜しいほど　I can’t take my eyes off you baby

この気持ちは裏切れない　傷ついても構わないさ
胸のうちを伝えるだけ　熱いうちに

＊あなたのために生きていいかな？
たっと一つの夢を分け合いたい
あなたを好きになっていいかな？
そっと包み込んで守りたい　yeah

飾り言葉はいらない　駆け引きなど似合わない
隠す事は何もない　I can’t take my eyes off you baby

この気持ちに嘘はないさ　空の青と同じぐらい
今見つめたときめきから　逃げたくない

あなたのほかに何もいらない
どんな悲しみさえも超えて行ける
大切な人抱きしめてたい
二人から始まるきらめきを yeah

＊繰り返し

[rap]

託などいらない　明日があるから
勇気を出しなよ　自由になれる

孤独を超えて　やっと出会えた
天使が誘う奇跡に　yeah
愛撫認めて　愛を許して
心を解いて　come to me, yeah

I can believe they call him handsome (NOOO!!!!)
＊繰り返し

あなたのほかに何もいらない
どんな悲しみさえも超えて行ける
大切な人抱きしめてたい

二つが一つに。。

Last Kiss - Bonnie Pink

2007-08-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

Last Kiss - Bonnie Pink

My heart burning red, the sunset robs me of words
The depth of feelings and time that have both stopped, are equal
Can you begin a trip with a single word?
Tomorrow without him
It's bitter, like beer for kids

You kissed my thin fingers
I'll never forget you

Even though we're apart
I remember our last kiss
I remember it

In the beginning, everyone is a pure baby
Even if you gnaw on the bitter truth
Don't slouch, walk straight
It's past, but in the rain it hurts so bad
I'm lonely as floating ice
You kissed my thin fingers
I won't forget that warmth
Even though we're apart
I remember your kiss

If we won't understand no matter what
I'm going to make sure of it, like a stream
You can blame it on whatever or whoever
Without disgracing the things you loved

You kissed my thin fingers
I'll never forget you

Believing that we'll meet again someday
I think about our last kiss
I remember you crying
And kissing my thin fingers
Even if that is the end of it
I won't forget our last kiss
I won't forget it...
I won't forget his kiss
nice! lol.

theres a reason....

2007-08-26T12:13:00.000+08:00

I m still going to stick to my old reasoning: There's a reason why EE is pronounced eee.

GAH!

emblem identity

2007-08-21T13:09:00.001+08:00

This emblem is the third emblem of Alciato's Book of Emblems. This emblem is to show that "One ought never to procrastinate". Haha! The words on the hooves is "Never postpone anything". :X.... haha

contemplation

2007-08-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

Well. During this time of abscence from the blog, not like anyone noticed......, I have been thinking alot.

Swearing is like a drug.

not this swearing:

this swearing:

and i was thinking, swearing is like a choice drug.
its like separated into different time periods, and like drugs, some prefer the older methods

17th century?: opium hell and damnation

80s: weed, marijuana Fuck! and Bastard!

Now: estacy, pot, ice, heroin MTFKR! EFFING! ....

Now i look at it, i think this post is rather obscene. Imagine I had to write this over two days... (well, I was tired WHAT.)

hahahahahahaha.....

Swiss Miss PWNS Milo. Badly.

I know this is VERY VERY VERY RANDOM. But then, heck cares.

My parents had bought a cylinder full of it and its making me less stress! Hurray for natural antidepressants! I remember how my mum used to buy this for me ever since young. I thyink she probably got the habit of drinking Swiss Miss after staying in the US for a while. (WHY WASNT BORN IN THE US???!!??!) LOL. Then I could get this PR. or Citizenship. And then go there and study cheaply. I m too money minded. $_$ I said this to brandon too. except that it was canada. LOL.

its too easy to be carried away by your life.

I just came up with this idea while i was talking to someone. Shall not divulge. And then I just thought, so many people are probably at a worse point than me. sigh. I cant do anything though.
sigh~.

Now is not the time to buy property in Singapore .

Anybody whose parents want to buy property in singapore now, DONT BUY NOW!
Why? Because there is good chance that a property bubble is growing now and is ready to burst. If you buy now, you would probably end up mourning for a bad buy for the next 6-7 yrs. Unless you are able to sell it at a good price, you will be mourning a bad loss. I m actually sad that the Gilstead View apt is going to en-bloc. Because I was thinking if it wasnt I could stay there in the future. Its sooooooo close to Newton MRT! And just 4 bus stops away from Lucky Plaza...... :3..... sigh. but then most likely nxt yr en-bloc. sadz.

Summer's ending! >.< (squeal!)

Autumn is coming. And I heard many old songs. Japanese. Which attracted me.

Minmi - Who's Theme

From Samurai Champloo. (kyaaa!) LOL. I just finished the series and I was really touched by it. Because of the story line. Its just different. Really personal delivery of story. I really cant believe she sang that actually. Because it isn't really her style. And her tone of voice. Also, while you're watching it, watch Shiki No Uta by Minmi too.

Summer Time Love - m-flo ♥ Hinouchi Emi & Ryohei.

Haha. The starting is really really very interesting. Emi looks very very ah soh when she had above-chin-length hair. With that slightly revolting guy she was sitting with. But then she had her hair tied in a bun above her head she looked pretty young.

Love Song - m-flo ♥ Bonnie Pink

This is not a summer song, but then its stuck in my head too. And by this you probably guess that the next one is an m-flo song too.

Loop In My Heart - m-flo ♥ Yoshika and Emyli

This song is stuck in my head. This has another version, but then in it Yoshika sung very lamely. But then its oso cos Emyli had a very very strong voice. Imagine, she is just 19 years old. And when I first heard her I thought she was nearing 30. --"

thats all!

My birthday! `

2007-08-15T16:01:00.000+08:00

# 2001 - Hurricane Michelle hits Cuba, destroying crops and thousands of homes.

Lol. searched wiki and found this happened on my birthday. :x destruction!

John Legend - Ordinary People

2007-08-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ordinary People John Legend lyrics

Artist: John Legend
Album: Get Lifted
Year: 2004
Title: Ordinary People

[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
[Ordinary People Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com]
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

This should be an anthem of humanity. But thats just my viewpoint. LOL. This song is old, but then its still touching in every way. Makes me think.... (==) i noe alot of thing i like makes me think but then, its nice to think, isn't it?

"We're just ordinary people, We don't know which way to go...."

:)

survey..about me.

2007-08-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

_{Appearance
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4".
[/] I think I'm ugly.
[/] I have many scars.
[/] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have one scar.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I have a spoilt sibling.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] Do home schooling.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something intentionally.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I fell down on my face.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Travelling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[x] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've been to Asia
[x] I've been to Australia
[x] I've been to the US.
[x] I've been out of my home country.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from MySpace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[X] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[ ] Kissed a girl/guy.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[/] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something.
[ ] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[/] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[/] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[/] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I cut myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CD's.
[x] I own an Ipod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[/] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on eBay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I love Gamers magazines.
[ ] I buy the newspaper everyday.

Random
[/] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[/] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have x’s in my screen name.
[/] I love being neat.
[x] I love Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I haven’t turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[/] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] I have been on the computer when I am as sick as a dog.

Lol.... havent been doing much stuff}

30 rock

2007-08-12T15:11:00.000+08:00

Lol watching 30 rock right now. Haha. The gay ex-page boy and the current page boy. OMG. LOL so funny...... ok.... nvm...its getting weird............ ): haha.... lemon is so funny.... and then in the end dont need her to win the case. LOL. haha.

Bloody tired. Duno why. Just tired.

A Second Chance

2007-08-11T01:25:00.001+08:00

GOD has given me another chance. I shall start anew.

Its comforting to know that GOD has given you another chance. And amazing how he lets you know it. (:

2007-08-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

I was telling gracia about my predicament and she did this:

Dear Lord, I pray for my friend mish
that u continue to show her more and more of urself each day, for Lord, in this world, we need ur love and care
our hope and our trust is in u, heavenly father, and i noe that u'll never betray our trust
Dear Lord, in your mighty name, let mish understand ur truths! Coz Lord, it is u who opens our eyes to you
it is u who draws us to ur Son, not by man
I pray for ur protection for her, and her family
protect them and care for them in Shanghai
and continue to bless them always, coz u love us and want the best for us, even though it doesnt seem like the best sometimes
Whatever fear, or depression, or watever, Lord, may u give her peace in her heart
for u are the prince of peace, and u are able to understand how we feel completely.
She is in ur hands always Lord. I thank u for giving us this time to talk and share.
And i thank u for loving us always, even though we dont feel loved, or dont feel worthy of being loved.
IN JESUS
' NAME I PRAY
AMEN

I cried.

Crumbs

2007-08-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

After talking to Siwon on Facebook, i was pretty depressed. And weird. I couldnt really concentrate on Fate/Stay Night and i lost interest. And Samurai Champloo. Which is extremely weird. NOOO!!!!!!

Why has the emo-ness has gotten to me? EMO-CONTEMPLATIVENESS. not good. I took a test. On depression. And i had moderate-severe. --------------------- darn. it doesnt look good.

In fact, I m a little more afraid of the future than i was before. Darn it. Also have to do with Fate/Stay Night also. Cos of the 'paths' that they have to consider in order to touch the 'Holy Grail'. Wonder wonder wonder. I can't get rid of it. It stays on me like a parasite, leeching onto its dear life.

Now looking at SAT. Shit. How i hate doing this stuff. Especially when you are lost.

nodame cantabile

2007-08-08T13:29:00.000+08:00

AIIIIIEEEE!!!!! nodame cantabile! LOL so cute! AAAAHHHH!!! Nodame reminds me of aemilia. LOL. Hahaha.... except for the unhygienic part. lol! makes me want to play piano again.... but here no piano.... ): haix. i miss my old piano *sniff sniff*

i m still watching.... - - "

2007-08-07T19:57:00.001+08:00

Haha.... still watching..... POOR REID! omg. religious extremists. or rather schizophrenic religious extremist.

i hope he doesnt get addicted to the drugs that Tobias gave him.....

edit: he did. this is getting a leeeettttlllllleeee too predictable..

p.s.: darn, wanted to watch NUMB3RS. but i m late.

Criminal Minds - Again! XD

2007-08-07T12:35:00.000+08:00

haha began watching it again. Lol......... i do have to say that nathan looks nice wearing all black, but then he reminded me of a vampire, cos his shoulder was almost 90 deg. LOL....... haha

Now when i look at my playlist, i wonder to myself "Why the hell did i get those songs?" Haha. especially when i look at melody.'s songs. I think that melody. has no real verbal talent actually, just that some songs she can do it well, but other than that no. I think i m still more suited for corinne bailey rae type of songs, slow, rnb-ish,

numerology

2007-08-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

from: here
You entered: Ng Jia Hui Michelle

There are 16 letters in your name.
Those 16 letters total to 83
There are 7 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:
Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

this is freakishly accurate to a certain degree. except for the negative part.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

ok accurate, to a certain degree. but then i am not pace setter.

Your Inner Dream number is: 6

An Inner Dream number of 6 means:
You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.

now this is, complete BS. cos i dont want it.

criminal minds

2007-08-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

awwwwww..... saw first few episodes of criminal minds..... feel sad, cos elle became someone screwed. But then who wouldnt be screwed up if someone came into your house and then shoot you senseless. haix people change..............

Also saw second episode of Bones. LOL.... all the forensic or psychoanalysis type of shows. Hmmm. Reid rocks my socks, but then the spectacles that he wears in season two is so FUGLY. haix.

thinking and thinking.

2007-08-05T15:54:00.000+08:00

Last night, i was reading chrno crusade. It was okay, considering that it didnt have a sappy ending. Its was unfinished, but then it held onto the belief that chrno would come back. It made me think, and think and think...............................................till i fell asleep. and i forgot what parody i could make with it. if i was a emocon, then i would be a head that looks totally grumpy and with a mini hurricane next to his head. Yes im that pissed that i forgot my idea. AIIIIIIIEEEE!!!!! this is so sucky.

I've been thinking whether i should play trickster. But then it sounds like runescape, just with nice graphics and 可愛い characters. hmmm. not worth my 400mb space.

Now i feel like listening to Anytime - Crystal Kay through out. Its so, RnB.... (hint hint: I hinting that Sony Music pay me for advertising her CD over and over again in this blog.... beh, not like my blog so popular like Xiaxue's blog.)

haha talking about xiaxue, i find that intellectual blogs arent so that popular, but blogs that are strongly under this category seem to fare well. Like:
- cam-whoring.

Xiaxues blog, or any other bimbo kid you can find in singapore have these types of blogs.

- sexually liberal

either those that like to show their bare-nakedness, (SarongPartyGirl , thank god she stopped.)
or those that enjoy saying words related to sex (Maddox, who does not update that frequently now.)

Yeah, these blogs seem to be very popular. Unlike blogs that talk about everyday life.

OMG its a saturday!

2007-08-04T11:04:00.000+08:00

Its saturday...... yes, you insufferable twit. havent realised it was friday yesterday....WOW. you certainly have time pass by you quickly. shut up.

(if you havent realised, this is a conversation between me and my inner self.)

kk............................

Siwon looks like a boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD haha all the little girls come looking at her think think that she is a 哥哥. OMG LOL. hahah..........

nothing to write now. later!

lame me smses

2007-08-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

haha. its late at night i know, but then i had to post it up. DISCLAIMER: Its lame, so dont sue me.

Siwon: What would i do without you?

Me: Die?

Siwon: Probably would have jumped from the window instead.

LOL..... haha i noe i noe lame lame. Who ask me to be LAM-er (if you dont know, LAM-er is a pun that me and li ji! came up with me after being in the same bio tuition class by Mr Lam, the author of the bio textbook! {GASP!} [its the green one with the spider and tiger on it. and he doesnt have a christian name ] you can find his picture in it somewhere next to a tree. really. i kid you not. )

haha. we are lam-e!

WORKAHOLIC

2007-08-03T11:44:00.000+08:00

WORKAHOLIC

作詞: H.U.B. 作曲: Koichi Tsutaya

Baby I’m a workaholic
I gotta shine in my life
明日も hard work to do

ソファで靴を履いたまま
眠ってオフィスから朝帰り
シャワーを浴びてメイクして
今来た道をまた逆戻り

週末 for my love　
スケジュールは空けておいたから
映画でも with you　
それまで気持ちは my line is busy now

※Baby I’m a workaholic　
I gotta shine in my life
たどり着けるはず
way to my dreams
Baby I’m a workaholic　
I gotta shine in my life
明日も hard work to do
Weekend loveaholic　
I wanna shine in your love
愛という名前の medicine to me.
Weekend loveaholic　
I wanna shine in your love
いつでも I’m loving you※

忙しい時思い出す
あなたのことそれは
baby feel so good
いつも支えてくれるから
私は前を見て歩けるの

週末 for my love　
疲れてるbodyにも
Friday night tonight
踊りたい with you
それまで気持ちは
my line is busy now

(※くり返し)

uh 今は聞かないで
仕事と恋はどちらが大事?
you know 夢を失くしたら
私は私じゃなくなるから
wonderful love wonderful dream
wonderful love wonderful dream
譲れないすべて

(※くり返し)

my goodness. This song is so addictive that whenever i hear it i want to do work. Mad eh? LOL. haha. Its one of the good songs in the album, but then i dont understand it wasnt released as a single. I think many people would like it.

now, i shall write in chinese. for the sake of just in case.

咳呀，事情发展到这个地步，我们只好向前走，不能回头，想起你的过错。有时，我怕网络朋友是那种原因。男生在网络上找朋友，认真的太认真，要玩的太放肆。那也是我为什么不想找男友的原因。因为我与男人分开了十年，从小一到中四都在女校，对于男人不是那么了解。真搞不懂那些人说没有男友的女人是“歪”的，他们有男友之前不是没有男友吗？那么他们那时没男友的时候是“歪”的咯。真没有逻辑。

我现在写华文真不是容易，好像我那短短的六个月把华文抛弃了一边，真是失败。洪老师应该是对我十分失望。这个博客清清楚楚地显示了华文不是我的窍门。哈哈！

test

2007-08-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

i hope they would revert back to the old blogger html. Its frustrating.

echoesechoing

wrong link

moving?

Intruder.

dissatisfaction

....

freak-a-zoid

:3

A drop of water in a desert.

New Look

真冬の星座 － 伊藤由奈

block

1 more paper to go!

you know you're singaporean when.......

So...

Baking a cake at midnight 'tween the passing hour of daylight savings time.

fatigue.

random thought

Flowers - moumoon & Style. - 西野カナ

LALALALALALALALA.

... hmmm

说好的幸福呢-周杰伦

New computer

Addiction

Talking

Respond

Be with Me - Olivia閻韋伶

forgotten rituals and persistent ills.

~~

“。。。我们所知，头发是容易着火的。。。”

A post, after a lonesome and frustrating break

Love You I Do

What I want to achieve by the age of 30 (follow up from CM)

what i do when i take down notes while skyping....

i want to draw frames of bunnies and place it on my head

Sooo... lol whutttt?

sea spray candles.

Procrastination 101

..... My housemate is going clubbing for a singaporean event and I am not.

update

Colour Change!

Saturday on a Toyota Rav4

testing

song game! (:

KissHug

Thursday

>< fan girl mode

test results

note

Sigh

depressing tone to life

WLIIA

Sinus Singapore

Leaving.

its still....

homestay

nauseic thoughts

Money money money, its a rich man's world

Darn you extra thick zonealarm firewall

someone pinch me

OMG SQUISHED

Thank You God!

Currently hooked on this song

Zhongshan Chronicles

Night Afternoon at the museum

refurnishing~

桜色舞うころ

(When the cherryblossom colors flutter)

BLogger BLogger blues.

chat between me and li jin

nice

プロポーズ大作戦SP

meme

change of site

emoness.

Kat-tun - you

Last Kiss - Bonnie Pink

theres a reason....

emblem identity

contemplation

真冬の星座　－　伊藤由奈