/// 11:25 pm
this is to Siwon:
*clears throat* i m indeed at a very high risk of being a psychopath. You can ask any one frm my cca ( ask tanu - horn! XD) and they will be lyk: ' definitely crazy'.... just that i grow older, had become more mature ( XD) and more serious ( dun laff) and more guai ( i wasnt so guai to do my everyday hw before kz?) . =D
haha.... i think alot of ppl wont lyk the crazy me in Shanghai that much, cos well, the stuff i make fun of is funny to girls ( sum how or another), which doesnt haf any effect on a guy ( not even a sissy one) and we r in a co-ed sch, so.. u get the idea..... i m very impartial! yeah so everyone laffs or no one laffs. Yay! lol.
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Oh, th pain is gone! yay! thks siwon! lol. had fun writing this foot note!
/// 11:13 pm
help me. The emptiness is back again............. it is bleeding again...............
/// 9:03 pm
went to try out the tests at www.quizbox.com cos tanu wrote in her blog that it was good. and it is almost totally correct.
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(maybe?)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
(hee hee true)
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
(hmm this i dunno)
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
(right.)
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(spot on!)
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
(maybe?)
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
(spot WRONG!)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(yesh)
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(correct!)
The Real You
Here is the analysis:
- You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you. ??
- You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend. maybe?
- You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with. part here part there
- Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side. wait, i love fun!
- Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking. wait, i pay too much attention!
But then, the personality parts are close...
What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Bright and Cheerful
You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
(nearly there?)What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
(no comment)
Are You Nosy?
Nosy Level: 50%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.
(*coughs* now you noe)
Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 50%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy
You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"
(nah, i think i 25%)
/// 8:44 pm
haha, this is the third post today, its weird isnt it........
looking at my email, has become something sentimental and heart-tearing to me. Looking at the lists of people i have, i realised that my friendships that i made could not stand against the power of time, that all strong bonds have crumbled into the ruins of the great wall of china.
I know that i m partly to blame for it,but then people move on too fast sometimes......
Maybe thats y i didnt make many friends in Sec 3/4, it is probably too painful to make some more friends who just want to friend you just for the 2 yrs of company. I think i think too much into the future, but what can you expect when someone just suddenly stops contacting you, and especially when they were close to you? I am probably like this because of the mistakes i made, i cannot let go. i want to relive the past again and again, not caring about the future.
Which is sad. To think that i m under so much denial............................................ haix. its me, and i cant do anything....can i?
/// 12:48 pm
hello. woke up from a weird dream..... dreamt that i forgot that today was o lvl first day, then i missed 3 papers in one go.....O_O then i want to go, but my parents say take the boat, then brought some animals with us... including a LLAMA!.... i think i have something screwed in my head... well then we took the boat all the way to Jurong... then we took the mrt and went all the way to clementi.... being the time freak as i m, i was lyk quick otherwise miss the second day exams....... then i went on, then my parents suddenyl say that we got 喜酒。 then i was lyk WTH! haha then the setter of the paper that i was supposed to sit later appeared and then said that we cant go for 喜酒, then i was lyk the flower v pretty ？？？？？ lol screwed. and then i went back to my house to get my maths notes, which was this hotel that i cant remember.. then i went up, then saw ann's user say that she was forested, and i was oso.....??? and then she suddenly appeared and then i tok to her abt a lvls. But then i was still forested cos i couldnt find the hotel card key. this dream has taught me something. I m rigid fella. funnily. cos i panic when there is an anormally. GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T
well, my dream sucks. lol.
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/// 12:46 am
arhhhh................ creative juices flowing............................. haha.... ok today is saturday T_T which means i have a day more to complete my work. BUT HEY! its 12 48 in the morning. so its ok i guess? haha... maybe sat-sun dun slp.... so that i will be able to go out all week nxt week! haha... i noe, dun say ' dream on'.... I LOVE PANDORA! it rocks!.... its lyk so good, cos i just type in this artist then it comes out with similar artists ( when i say similar, its really close) and then i just enjoy listening to it right now... however, i m not listening to it right now, cos i abit sian of click here and there... so i stick to lush radio.i cant believe i actually din lyk it when it was on 987 carlsberg groove............. but then the songs they played wasnt that nice either too, it was lyk trance lyk, but lush is lounge type so i enjoy it seriously.............
Haha, Tanu! thank you for introducing me to erhm and erhms blog, they keep me so entertained, especially with the cl+i+f flirting part. I enjoy it alot, oso they updated >.< so i m lyk yippee! haha........ too bad i cant construct chats lyk this right now cos no one is online in my list... is lyk all my old classmates not really here, and my classmates all fly to overseas, yada yada..... i m the least patriotic one here! cos i dun really want to go back to singapore, however i want to go to taka and eat sobayaki... or omu rice..... heehee but i noe how to cook omu rice so its ok.... but the omu rice is nice..... haha..... and then go shopping for ......................books and stationary! haha shocked u didnt i.... i absolutely hate shopping, unless i c something unusual, lyk mink coats...... i saw one in Isetan Shanghai, and then they were lyk 10000 rmb... which is 2000 sing.... i wouldny buy one even if i had the money. seriously....... i think that its a complete waste of money. rabbit fur would do..... since rabbits reproduce so quickly *rolls eyes* but then other than that i would just wear synthetic. its not nice to kill rabbits just to display their outer body to beautify your ownself right? i didnt noe decaying coats would be in fashion....
haha... i recently start toking to fatin all over again, and its interesting...... our relationship has detiorated ever since the end of p6 and now is lyk guy to guy conversation ( the one word one word type... if you are a guy and dun tok lyk that, then you are special, ok? you either take this complement or you will get none in the future.) so its lyk sad sad........ which reminds me on how my social skills have really detiorated.................... i think its because of my stupid selfconsciousness............... i think its because of it. i think that if i m lyk not selfconscious i would be prancing around in a field of daises right now. lol. which i m half doing that but thats not the case. The case is that my social skills suck. the end. haix.... how leh?
any way, fatin was saying that ppls blog, and its supposed to be a diary, and then you show it to the world.... whatever happened to personal space? then i was lyk yeah, i just use this blog to tell my friends what im doing. Well, it is right? i might tell of my personal opinion sometime,
but i dont use it to write, ohhhh x is such a slut, she slept with 5o men and she told me that! and its supposed to be a secret. oops its on my blog. *slaps head* (i cant stand those type of ppl btw) haha looking back, its ironic i told ann that blogs are stupid when now i haf a blog......................... hmm me contradict me. lol.
/// 1:20 pm
haha changed the layout and also aligned the thing porperly... but then thig still doesnt fit in properly..... sigh.... i m still struggling with my homework but then its better as i finished my bio... and now i m looking for econs article......
/// 1:13 pm
ゎたしわみしぇるさです。。。 writing in japanese is really difficult, and i cant believe i went through the trouble to write it all down......... haha. anyway, i went to all the trouble to comment on this manga. it is ばか-ic. lol. cos the girl always dun understand y the producer does all the stuff.sheesh. holiday sux, cos i m dying of firework OD. i hate fireworks, and this had to happen during cny. SHEESH. i think that this is going to be a very long long chinese new year.....
i cant seem to touch my hw... brain dead.... lol. Not motivation at all. but then if i dun do my hw, i m scared fo the consequences. But then i oso too lazy to bother... 怎么办呢？等一下老师骂。。。。死了死了，头脑不再听我的话， 这种事发身在年青人的身上是不是同常的事？我一直听藍小津か的歌。。。（我不知道她的真正名，但是拼音应该对。。。。）听了有点儿安慰。。。。。。。我觉得很困。。。但是如果我睡， 晚上不能睡，我也不喜欢三更半夜做事。。。我的身体真的是screwed 了。lol.
Yesterday i watch AI and then i was seriously disappointed. Every guy was MEWing in there. I didnt enjoy it at all. The shocking one was the beatboxing guy. He sounded off, and everyone seem happy with it. O_Ｏ i knew he couldnt do the serious stuff properly.... anyway... not happy with everyone cos it sounded just lame.
I feel abit angry at some ppl as its obvious they are avoiding me.... which pisses me off. really does piss me off..................sigh i can never get what i want can i?
Labels: ばか
/// 4:25 pm
i was reading manga, when i passed
akuma_na_eros
so i started reading it.... and i was lyk the other manga, 霸王之爱人， which got me really pissed, cos, as u noe, the artist lyk to write this type of hentai stories. sheesh. ne wae, the front part was ok, till after the first quarter i read it with a 'one-raised-eyebrow' type of look. The ending is oso so crappy.....
I m supposed to do my homework, but then i m sitting here writing my blog.... i cant seem to touch my homework... and my SAT books... i really need a long break without any technology........ yawn
so, hcny, and please dont drink and drive XD
/// 2:48 pm
| You Are 76% Abnormal |
You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.
You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
| Your Aura is Red |
You have a high level of emotion. This can mean passion, but it can also mean rage.
Usually, you don't take these emotions out on others. You just use them as motivation - and it works!
The purpose of your life: embracing all the wonders of the life, lots of travels, and tons of adventures
Famous reds include: Madonna, Marilyn Monroe, Jennifer Lopez
Careers for you to try: Dancer, Boxer, Surgeon |
| Your Dominant Intelligence is Logical-Mathematical Intelligence |
You are great at finding patterns and relationships between things.
Always curious about how things work, you love to set up experiments.
You need for the world to make sense - and are good at making sense of it.
You have a head for numbers and math ... and you can solve almost any logic puzzle.
You would make a great scientist, engineer, computer programmer, researcher, accountant, or mathematician. |
| Your Mind is PG-13 Rated |
Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy.
You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude. |
HA! li ting!
| Your EQ is 133 |
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
| Your True Birth Month Is January |
Loyal
Social
Logical
Easily jealous
Loves children
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Likes to criticize
Needs close friends
Ambitious and serious
Smart, neat and organized
Hardworking and productive
Loves to teach and be taught
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Searches for the greatest romance
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses |
| Your Birthdate: November 4 |
You have an extraordinary character - moral, responsible, and disciplined.
Your sincerely and honesty shine through in almost every situation.
Driven and focused, you rarely let your emotions get the better of you.
You're level headed and rational. People count on your to look at things objectively.
Your strength: Your unwavering loyalty and ethics
Your weakness: Your rock solid stubbornness
Your power color: Navy blue
Your power symbol: Shield
Your power month: April |
| You are "Sleeping" |
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| You Belong in Spring |
Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...
You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.
Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season! |
| Your Lust Quotient: 16% |
Congratulations, you have your lust under control.
It's not that you aren't a lustful person, you just like to save it for the perfect occasion! |
/// 7:41 pm
lol.
Thinking of this gives me the goosebumps, cos the end consequence of it may lead to social suicide if it was let out in the public. ENTIRE public.( which is my school, but hey, only my old frenz noe my blog addy.) The end.
Abrum called James my husband. O_O *jaw drops* i have no idea why he dares to say that. He makes it sound as if he wsas so loose..... this is scary. i duno how far it is going to get, cos i think he is going to spread it to other ppl....
and yuan lao shi is no longer our bus teacher.... that means james is stuck to be my sitting partner for long. Shit. wish i didnt wish the seniors in the bus would be more comunicative........well, NOT in this way.....
BTW, if u duno who is James, he is a boy from sec 4 who sits next to me in bus cos the little kids did a little switch-a-roo. Damn those kids... oh shit my nose is bleeding, duno how it started in the first place......
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ok back.
I think that i m getting on people's nerves...... i HAVE no idea why?..........shit.... i m the one in the pitch darkness....................
I think that i think i m going to use this excuse from now on, so that when someone says i lyk someone, then i will say ' i prefer mature guys that are about 3-7 yrs older than me, so its impossible.' unless i like the guy. which is rare. But then i do lyk mature guys, cos they are.... more mature larh, duh.... but i think that would be mentally.... lyk aemilia who lyk a white collared guy with a tall build lyk sephy, i think i m more inclined to older guys.... i have always been lyk that.....
However, i tend to mix around with little kids... guess my inner age is 10. LOL...........
i really want my chinese to get better, but then i cant seem to do that porperly.... i cant speak chinese properly, write properly.... ya da ya da..... does it have to do with me throwing the knowledge away after the o's? definitely...
so from now on , 让我试试用华语来写博客。
到了这里， 我觉得我十分缺德的。。。。。。。。。。。 因为我那么容易放弃了我的前辈的语言。。。。。。。 哈哈。。。 总算知错了。。。
我真的被siwon学妹影响了， 因为我实终还是希望得到一个男朋友。。。。 咳呀。。。 这次就惨了。。。哈哈
