02.小小蟲 - 方大同

Name: Michelle
Age: 17 years old
Date of Birth: November4 1990
Horoscope Sign: Scorpio

meizshelle@gmail.com

RGPS CGS SSIS UWA :3

Ameera / Annabel / Cherlyn / Che Min / Christine / En Jia / Grace / Gracia / Huixian / Jeanette / Jessica / Jing Min / Joanne Loh / Joanne Ting / Li Jin / Li Ting the sexy queen / Nicole / Rachel Ng / Sharifa / Siwon / Stephanie / Sui Ying / Tanu / Yali

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yamapi looks so good with curly hairrrrrrr!!!!

kyaaaaaa!!!!

lol

fangirl mode: complete.

gotta watch code blue soon.

(:

And I need to be freee!!!!!

Tmr i should go buy towels and pants. I need more pants.

And I need to wake up early tmr.

Today didnt have ANHB lesson. So i rushed out of house for NOTHING.

Damn.

And there wasnt prelab. So I stayed till 2 for NOTHING AGAIN.

<_< I should just stop being blur for once. ITs getting on my nerves.

and did my SCIE1103/2? PASSED!!!! But I missed the passing mark for IRIS by 1.5% so pissfying.

<_<

I wanna go outttttttt

And shop. for necessities.

Yeah I know, people hate shopping for these stuff, but i absolutely LURVE them.

And no, I m not housewife material.

Finally opening my bank acc this wednesday.

"ANYONE who wants to send me money can (:!"

*hint hint*

hahahahahaha!

So..... homestay making shepherds pie right now. it smells oily now :S.

I realised that I cant eat cos I will fall asleep during lecture an hour later. So weird.

I should sleep more.

Like now.

But I cant sleep.

just bathed.

HMMM.

well.

Skype was pretty bad, like every 2-3 mins I had to recall again. So crappy.

And I need to ask my dad to get msn in shanghai home pc to stop automatically sign me in.

grrr.

and.

I missssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss 9 oclock closing shopping mall times.

sigh. 5's a little too early, dont you think? why not 6? 6 is more functional.

well. cant argue with other peoples' lifestyles.

i just realised HOW contagious SIWON is.

Yeah.

If you read my CBOX, you would have realised that SIWON has been saying that its SNOWING here.

Question: Is Perth snowing?
Answer: absolutely FUCKING not.

(see I m so irritated that SIWON is influencing her MISTAKES on other people)

yeah.

So today was brill, went for med checkup and got a COOL xrayyyyyyy

and then well... liquid oxygen is sooooo cool...

go search paramagnetism of liquid oxygen on youtube, they will have a vid on how liquid oxygen can actually be held by the paramagnetic forces of a paramagnet!

Yeah. organic chem experiments rock.
molecular and atomic orbitals in organic chem DOES NOT.

soooooooooo.....

I m going to resolute myself to be more studious. Mainly because I want to be subsidised for my tuition and to get someone to sponsor me i need to be outstanding= first in class. or top 3. lol.

I guess i have alot to beat, because my ANHB1102 class has about 300+ people. Yeah. I m basically screwed.

and my SCIE1106... sighhhhhhh they say there is alot of people. And I trust the lecturer for saying that.

and my chem.... OMG I HAVE CHEMICAL ENGINEERING AND WTV ENGINEERING TO BEATTTTT!!!!!!!! holy crap.

rahhhhh!
(my aspirations are screwed)

Well whoever who got freaked out by my previous post, its my unpredictable mood swings that I normally keep inside. But now I feel better, because I know that I was panicking about NOTHINGGGGGGGGGG.......................................................

sheesh. Whats wrong with me..... (li jin, use your psych knowledge to help me!!!)

well home alone now.

marissa and louisa went to another person's house.
helena out partying/dinnering/whatevering

sigh.

I need friends.....

maybe i should talk to pim. she takes the same combo as me.

hmmmm.

SCIE1106 was shitty today. Because I forgot to get the unit manual. So i didnt read ahead. Butttttttttt (: quiz i got 0/2, but lab report 3/3 YAYYYYYYYYYY so i passed cos they are added together.

But the walk to QEII was so bad. Raining and far. I ran with Pim to QEII from ANHB1102.

ANHB1102 was quite fun, but then its because of all the weird strides the lecturer made and the lewd animations in the ppt.

sooooooooo night.c ciao

God is giving obstacles.

I need to recover.

I need to get my documents in order.

And my health checkup wthout the credit card paid for..

And to correct the Immigration department that I actually applied onshore.

OMG.

I want to just. Sit down. Watch the sun go down. And watch the world go by. And then slowly disappear.

Its unrealistic.

But its the happiest situation that I can think of.

Yesterday I thought it was over. I was so wrong.

This is the worst first day of school ever.

I should get drunk.

And that would be stupid. Really stupid.

So again, another thing that I set to do is dismissed. Just like my other failed projects.

Today I thought would be the first day of new beginnings. And a boulder is thrown my way.

I m getting very bad anxiety problems.

I need tranquilisers.

Sometimes I feel that I have depended on the wrong people too.

The one I trust didnt help any way at all.

Maybe I should just pray hard. Very hard.

And cry.

I hope tomorrow is a good day.

And I can once more forget about life. Me. And the future.

And by the looks of it, I think drugs would not be bad for me, but a prescription miracle drug now.

For now, the strength to smile is still here.

Laughter is no longer a sign of happiness, but a omen of obstacles to come.

Its true when they say "Laugh too much, Cry later."

Good luck everyone, who left for their unis.

Maybe you would not see me anymore. Maybe you will.

I just hope everything will go on smoothly from now on.

Smiling uses up more muscles now. Frowning is my natural state.

I m so screwed so screwed so screwed.

Everything went on smoothly. Till.

CoE cannot be verified for visa.

Its invalid.

Shit.

I wanna die TnT

hahahaha WLIIA

"what is the name of the upcoming band?"
"tern?...... arctic tern?"
"and what sound does the arctic tern makes?"
".....BBBBackstreet boys?"

LOLLLLLL

HELLO FAST INTERNET!

XD so happy.

haha

Last few hours in Shanghai. Feels... weird.

Farewell Shanghai!

Meet you in 2018? NO idea.

Just checked and still found this.

Application status

The general stages for the application status are
Application received --> Application processing --> Outcome of application

Your current status is Application processing.

NUS go update your system!!!!!

よかた。。。

Provided are two meals per day, breakfast and dinner from Monday to Friday; with three meals a day provided on weekends and public holidays; a single room; furnished and access to laundry facilities .The current homestay fee is A$220 per week payable 4 weekly in advance. This fee covers charges for electricity & gas but not telephone calls or internet.

phew.

but that means 1hr travelling time. I better apply for dorms.

NO INTERNET! I hope they have some kind of plan :S.

.... Well.
Its 2.49 am now.
I have been awake for 48 mins now.
I have very bad sleeping habits, no?

Now im deliberating between AVG and AVAST... ( if you dont know what are they, they are free antivirus programs)

I have one day to finish my girl PS painting. Which goes on very slowly.

My eyes feel puffy, which is very very very unbearable.

Sigh.

Im still panicking inside for my tickets to Perth. Apparently I cant get them issued. Qantas is trying to play a stupid joke on all of us. RAHHHH.

Now its the best time to play the song ひとり.

ひとり－中島美嘉
Translation by: Jonathon Wu

The streets dyed in crimson red
The shadows on the pavement
That picture of us
Where did it go to?

Silently passing by
In the middle of the season
The only one left
Is me...

Gently
Displaying my weakness
It was possible,
Even though I didn’t think so
It was a
clumsy love [we had]

Just one more time
If the two of us can just return to that time
Without being mislead I
Embraced you
[Please] don’t let go

The night dyed in black
Hugging my knees
I think back upon
The day you came over

Surely I was childish
I didn’t see it [at first]
I say, the name of love is
Understanding

At that time
My chest was pilled up
Even those
Repeated memories
The disolved
Without even a sound

Just one more time
If I can just return to that one night
I embrace your back
When you try to walk away
[And then] I stopped pulling you back...

When I was so selfish
I told myself it was the solution a hundred times
Soon it will be alright
I keep on going, waiting, all by myself

Those painful memories of you
You lived on and found someone to be with
There’s no misery for anyone but me
But even now
I can’t forget [you]

Just one more time
If the two of us can just return to that time
Without being mislead I
Embraced you
[Please] don’t let go

Its a nice song to listen to alone.

I am currently listening to 鬼束ちひろ who sounds really really like AI. But with a jazz sound. And every song makes you want to cry. Well. want to. but no.

月光(Moonlight)－鬼束ちひろ
Ｔｒａｎｓｌａｔｉｏｎ － Ｔｅｒｅｓａ Ｋｏ

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

My stride succumbs to a sudden gust of wind
It seems like I’ll fall any moment
But these chains won’t allow it

Having surrendered up my heart to you
My feelings for you now lay scattered about
I still don’t know how to pick them up

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

Talk more about your ‘reasons’
Until I fall asleep

I’m swathed in medicine that doesn’t work
Here, there is no sound,
What should I believe in?

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought: I have no place anywhere

Discomfort, a bitterly cold wall,
What will the next thing to weaken me?
Don’t reach out your hand, even at the end
You, of all people, will rescue me

From the silence

Time will speed the pain

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought
I have no place anywhere

Sigh.

So, I m currently on a loan from my parents with no interest. Good? Yes.

So as calculated, if I take bachelor's degree (in AUS$):

course fees 3 yrs				24k X 3 T_T
				total				74K
				care giver's and homestay fee				1.05K
				homestay rent				.22k X 52 X 3
				total (homestay)				45K
				visa				.6k
				true total				120.65k
				Bachelor Pay				1.5k
				years to pay it off				12.5 yrs

If I take honours:

course fees 4 yrs

24k X 4 T_T

total

96K

care giver's and homestay fee

1.05K

homestay rent

.22k X 52 X 4

total (homestay)

45.76K

visa

.6k

true total

142.81k

Bachelor Pay

3k

years to pay it off

7.8 yrs

The numbers of years that you need to spend paying off is based on if you take exactly half of your pay for allowance. a month.

TnT now i am paniking, cos the only flight to Perth is by myself. TnT

I m seriously need to take tranquilizers.

Yeah. apparently all these internet troubles was not because I fiddled with the TCP/IP settings. But because Zonealarm was so good that it blocked EVERYTHING. Whee~

Well. So now internet is back, I am taking for granted the internet access, posting what i feel like. So.

PICTURESSSS!!!!

First, at the junction of Yan An Road where the Yan An Highway splits into two different places, one to XJH and the other to downtown......


HORSIESSSSS

Kite flying at Zhongshan Park. We were run down by the heat, and were ... sort of tired.


Go higher, go HIGHERRRRR!!!

The following day I took this from my balcony. Which is big but have no use.


Ooh, it looks like a resort from far (:

The same day, when we (me, siwon, chemin, chris) went to xjh and then later went to Chemin's house.

on the way.... at the upper end of Wu Zhong Road nearer to XJH.

We sat a taxi to Chemin's house

On the way: oohhhh reflection!

So we played Wii with Chemin and her family. Haha six girls in the house (excluding her mother)+ one wii = alot of noise and fun!

These photos were taken on the way back.

buildings near xintiandi


abit blur cos was moving in a car.


On Yan An Highway near Gubei

This is random.

Cheap ethanoic acid/ vinegar looks like this when left to evaporate


square crystals! what do you give?


clearer

Dear Miss Ng

Please find attached your offer letter. The original will be couriered
to you later today.

Kind regards,

Gwennie

_____________________________

so this is actually happening. My father doesnt want me to attend orientation. I at least want to arrive on friday, so that i will have leeway to do whatever those people did in 5 days on friday. Now i sound like some kind of cyborg crazy woman.

Internet is down for both coms. And I have no idea why it cant receive any information...

I need some help. not really, i need ALOT of help.

Someone pinchhelp me!

Well, during the duration that I didnt blog this happened:

• computer got confiscated for overusage
• but then internet was so crappy anyway my router spoilt and my computers could log on but not into the internet. So angry.
• Then I got my computer back and got the internet fixed. Then realised that UWA wasnt going to reply so called them. Realised that it was pretty late for me to call them. Found out that they didnt receive my email. So was sort of rejected as it was late. So I was asked to take the Feb intake. (internet was still working)
• Then father got slightly incensed because he thought that the admission officers thought that I was China Chinese. So went onto make a big fuss.
• This morning he called them and got them to reconsider. And they wanted my certified results scan. So I went back to the Post Office that I went to earlier in the morning to send my certified results by snail mail and got it back to scan. And then they said that they were going to give me a standard offer. O_O. I m still in shock.
• And also, which means that 1. I have approx less than one week to pack. 2. And to get homestay. 3. And get a visa. 4. And ORIENTATION starts next mon. Which I cant attend fully. Shit.

So tell me, WHAT AM I GONNA DO!!!!??? I had practically already resigned myself to a gap year full of work to earn my living expenses. But then. This happens. I think i need to sleep more so that I can think properly.

(: Thank You! Thank You!

Funny, yet my heart is still not at ease. In fact, my heart flutters like first love ( yeah I know, ridiculous exaggeration).

I can't thank God enough. This is purely by His grace that led me to get this marks.

However, one cannot deny that I could have gotten higher. Because I simply did not add any effort in TOK and EE.

I should start applying for homestay. Now the next obstacle is for me to pass is the application to UWA.

My father is trying to ask me to reconsider my attachment to UWA, because he wants me to go to Melbourne instead. :S.

Weird, the panadol I took took away my headache, along with my sleepiness.

So, I guess that its really goodbye to the school, the happy moments at the rooftop garden trying to kill skin cells and melanin, the crazy times in the classroom where we watched endless movies and the episodes of project runway, to the times where we flew the kite and got it stuck on the pipe lining of the school roof, to the times when we tormented Benny with care-bear cheerfulness, to the times we laughed at each other.

I hope to go back to the school one day, to see the current foundation of the neighbouring building become a building, with each metal foundation wire charting the acheivements we have attained and obstacles crossed, building up our life stories.

Now I m really delirious.

St. Germain - Vanessa Paradis

Pour un exil
Ce petit bout de femme t'emmeneras loin
Tout est permis
J'ai mis mes pas dans les siens
Elle est bien le soleil
Puisque tout tourne autour d'elle
Petite merveille
Pas si facile
D'etre aussi pure dans un monde qu'il est moins
Mille et une symphonies
Qu'elle inventera en un rien
Enfin le bonheur
C'est toutes les couleurs
De son coeur
Tu donnes gout a la vie
Je t'avoue je t'envie
T'es tout c'qui m'donne envie
M'donne la vie
Melody
Je m'adoucis
Quand je m'rends compte qu'au fond elle m'aime bien
Pour un de ses sourires je f 'rais
Le tour de la terre sur les mains
Aux nouvelles des etoiles
Elle fait briller son ame
Quand l'jour s'enflamme
Tu donnes gout a la vie
Je t'avoue je t'envie
T'es tout c'qui m'donne envie
M'donne la vie
Melody

lawl, went to Zhongshan road this morning to meet Chris and Siwon to fly kite.

But we failed MISERABLY.

hot day+ small wind+ stubborn kite= Sad Chris Michelle and Siwon ):

Haha, but got to eat cold stone (:

Mint Mint Choco Chocolate Chip (:

Haha!

And then, the main event came.

So question: How fast can you piss 5(+1) people off at once (with a partner)?

Answer: just 30mins-1hour

Yeah. We did exactly that (Siwon and I).

So Siwon was approached by this middle aged lady who was advertising for this beautician company from hong kong. And then upon hearing that they would give free facial wash, Siwon went. And I too, because I thought they were giving those small packets and bottles of samples -.-

Obviously, I was wrong. So they went ahead and washed my face and talked about how blackheads were a problem. Then, BAM! their sales pitch came in. They begin talking about how the blackheads would become like a tumour. (Yes it will. Thats because it will grow.) Its not like I didnt know (I learnt it in a course in Sec 4) so i simply switched off my brain and pretended to nod in agreement every pause she made. Thank goodness Chinese does that to me everytime. So basically, they went on and went on. SO basically the product just makes the blackheads crawl out by themselves. (creepy)

So first went onto the "filial" tactic. I simply told them that I'd have to consult my mum first. Which is true. And works on about 75% of the population. BUTTTTTT they were so persistent, and went on saying that how my mum will want my skin to be flawless too and she wouldn't know my wants and needs. Basically insulting my mum's efficiency in her maternal job.

So they got their GM in. Scary. Not. She was this Anhui person, so I could not really sympathise with her. She went onto talk about how her niece went to study in Singapore. And then got herself many angmoh friends and went onto study in Malaysia. And then, the sale pitch again. So, again I refused. Refused and refused. And then she had told me that my eyebrows were slightly connected and wanted to pluck it for me.

No one plucks my eyebrows. NO ONE.

So now back to the topic, so I decided to go onto the ever so great INDIVIDUALISM track. So I said that my eyebrows were part of me (didnt they know that connected eyebrows= stubborn and short tempered person? Naive people). And then they suddenly switched the topic back to the blackheads, said that so blackheads are part of me. So I got slightly pissed and just kept quiet.

But by JOVE! Siwon smsed me from the other room. YAYYYYYY!!! So I pretended that she was my mum and then "she" had called me from Hongqiao and asked me to go back there immediately to gather, so I had to go soon.

And they got quiet and then left me to this girl to finished washing my face (: . So cool. I swear, there was some kind of "good cop bad cop" role going between the three who were in the room.

When they finished, I saw 5 grumpy people sitting at the reception. YAY! MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!!!!!! And there, we made the beautician lose money today!

So if you're wondering, whos the other +1? Well, that was Siwon's mother. Because Siwon told her that we might be going back to eat lunch. And she had cooked lunch for us. Darn. So she was slightly pissed at us. :S Well, win some lose some. But the food that she cooked was really good, especially the carmelised carrots and onions with beef and tofu. TOFU... sigh, i have to cut down the intake of soya products, otherwise i might get thyroid cancer. ): But tofu's so tasty. Sigh.

Hello... Currently Siwon and Chris are at 美罗城 starbucks drinking earl grey with 4 small cups of ice accompanying them.

So TODAY... went to the Shanghai Natural Museum! (すごい！<--- lol i m inserting my own audience comments) So basically i went there to see the DINOOOOSSSS!!!!

Theres supposed to be a nice picture here, but because of some weird html problem, I cant put it properly, so until then see the rest! (:

Yeah... :3 dinos.


The brachiosaurus(?) (i cant remember the name shit...)

And... unfortunately we didnt get to see a stuffed mammoth.


Dino Eggs!


Who wants icecream!!!!


Me!!!!!

And the animals....


hedgehoggggggg


leopard cubbbbbb


MOOOOOOOOOOse

LOL. i liked this..... its called a Wolverine

There not so tough now, Wolverine?

Got this really funny picture.... or a kind of turtle

I dub thee, THE WIGGG!


BEAR!!! Run!!!!

Lolll I prefer them like this:

(before PETA comes after me, I meant death by natural causes, deceased, expired.)

So....

I went on a recustomisation spree. @_@

I redid everything that I could. And i feel good. LOL

MY CBOX IS THE BESTEST!!!!!!!

:3

Maybe I should change my font to all green. :3 then i will feel better.

Yesh i shall!

Lol

I m practically talking to myself.

SO....

CHANGE I SHALL!

Update: Few mins later

So... YAY! green text!!!!

Trying to work on flash skills right now. Especially when i have more time now. And then try to finish a movie.

Somehow me not going to school now gives me this really really weird feeling. :S

Tomorrow will be going to the natural museum. YAY me!

Looking back at my previous blog posts, i feel extremely.... relieved. Because this blog has changed from a rant blog to a .... self improvement/thought/happy blog. My old blog was really dark. really really dark. So I am growing (so it seems and I hope :D)

The road of enlightenment is fun, especially when there is God to protect you and guide you back to Him whenever you stray. Because of His grace, I have learnt and continued on with little big obstacles possible.

Yeah, whoever who did not know that I believed in God, you do now.

Looks like Mozilla Firefox Dictionary does not agree with past participle tense. :S.

Chemin watched The Secret. As in the documentary that earned many people's cheers and jeers. According to the video, a man who did a Dream Board of his dream house in his room ended up having almost the same house almost a decade later. Sounds nice. *starts drawing out a picture of a travelling professor* XD.

Leaving.

That's all that we have in common. Somehow, some one will leave you during the course of your lifetime. And you cant stop it. During this time, you switch/seek dance partners to dance the rest of your life. And like this you branch out into different areas of the earth and also connect branches with the other, yet, still retaining the old branch. Maybe, just maybe, sometimes you think that the old branch would drop and decay, but then you realised that no matter what the branch will still be there, connecting you and the other node together. Like this, you would get over leaving someone that you have remained close to for a few years. And that is the tree of relationships.

桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり 押さえきれぬ胸に 立ち尽くしてた 若葉色 萌ゆれば 想いあふれて すべてを見失い あなたへ流れた めぐる木々たちだけが ふたりを見ていたの ひとどころにはとどまれないと そっとおしえながら 枯葉色 染めてく あなたのとなり 移るいゆく日々が 愛へと変るの どうか木々たちだけは この想いを守って もう一度だけふたりの上で そっと葉を揺らして やがて季節はふたりを どこへ運んでゆくの ただひとつだけ 確かな今を そっと抱きしめていた 雪化粧 まどえは 想いはぐれて 足跡も消してく 音無きいたずら どうか木々たちだけは この想いを守って 「永遠」の中ふたりとどめて ここに 生き続けて めぐる木々たちだけが ふたりを見ていたの ひとどころにはとどまれないと そっとおしえながら 桜色舞うころ, 私はひとり あなたへの想いを かみしめたまま

When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone Standing exhausted, I can’t cut off these feelings bottled up inside When the color of new leaves shake, feelings overflow I lost sight of everything and drifted towards you The trees around us told us in silence That we would both see: People don’t have to be limited to one place When the withering leaves change color, I am next to you And as the passing days fade, our love changes But please, let these trees Protect these feelings Silently rustling your leaves above us, Just one more time.. Before long, the seasons will pass And we will be taken somewhere else But right now, there’s only one thing I know Embrace me, silently Covered by the snow, the feelings get lost The footprints vanish, sounds disappear in vain But please, let these trees Protect these feelings So that, frozen in eternity We may live on here The trees around us told us in silence That we would both see: People don’t have to be limited to one place When the cherryblossom colors flutter, I’m alone Savoring my thoughts of you

So... I decided to become a loyal person to petitmall till I go to Australia. Meh.

Hahahahahahahahaha

SO i got a stress ball from Vietnam from my aunt. ( I'm half expecting my cousin to get something better, but feh, got used to it)

Today's sky is good. In the sense that it was a different colour than normal.

And also because half the sky was dark and half was light. (:

So basically, I got a tablet.... SHINY BAMBOO ONE!!!! (: hahaha so im pretty happy.

So... theres like ...... about 5 days to IB results[emoji:510] abit worried.

But:

I will get 35+ and go to UWA
I will get 35+ and go to UWA
I will get 35+ and go to UWA

( I didn't copy and paste this! <_< Every sentence used up 2 ATP! [my guess])

頑張ってね！

有賀とみんなさん！

2006－2008 was fun!