心病最难医。。。寂しいね。。。

terra chips! and reminiscence /// 1:08 pm

after reading this blog, i was remembered of one of the best potato chips in the world. ok i m exaggerating. and lying. cos it isnt mostly potato chips. its sweet potato chips and taro and blue taro. and it tastes soooooooooooooooooooo gooood!
I remember my mum buying these for me from jasons in singapore. (before it downsized.) (and also yes, i m a import freak.) i misss it!!!! ahhhhhhhh...... well, which reminds me of what i want to do when i reach singapore.

1. go to takashimaya.

i used to loathe going there cos, well, i almost went there every week and just before i moved to shanghai almost everyday. (gasp! i did!) now i miss it like shit.
so i m basically going to weld myself to the foundations of kinokuniya, and read the entire whole day. (what you expected me to be some kind of shopaholic? @_@)
then i m going to orchard library. ( i m never going to use my card. cos my father just paid off $50 sing for a book that was 'lost' but i actually remembered returning it. weird.)
go buy sobayaki/omu rice and liang cha. (dont give me that look. i want it.)
go prancing off to the stationary section of takashimaya (yes i have a fetish with stationary)

2. go to heeren.

basically i go there to walk around and act cool (--" ok ditch the act cool part)

3. go to centrepoint

i really want to see the new extension of the building. and what it has.

4. go to paragon.

act tai tai and go to the branded goods shop ( LOL XD... ok maybe need the help of my aunt cos she extremely tai tai. chi chi wtv)
go and see the travelling shop.

5. go isetan

go see whether got hokkaido fair! (and buy japanese pasta sauce and bring back home)

6. go plaza sing

just go loiter. there nothing much to do there.............

7. go city hall

loiter oso. but in a bigger area. cos linked to suntec, millenia, and raffles city. (and go to the soup spoon!)

hmmm maybe last resort go to orchard cineleisure. But then theres nothing there to do..... i dont think i go all the way back home just to see movies is a waste of time when you can just watch them of the internet or buy those 5rmb = S$ 1 cds.

stupid porn blogs. when i want to see whether i can coincidentally come up with a good read, they just appear and then spoil my appetite and my 心 to do anything cos i would be extremely traumatized. i can talk and write disgusting stuff, but i cant ever see them. I would be extremely grossed out. visual gore. *shudder*

maybe we should come up with some kind of force that goes against these immoral stuff. although people say that they are not affecting us if we dont see it but then if you are just an innocent bypasser, then what will happen? how would you know this simple site domain ' oasisnight' could mean something bad? hmm.....

the crystal kay fan girl is back! /// 11:07 am

Haha! I m so HAPPY! 'cause kuri-chan came up with a new album ( ok that was long ago.... but then i just found out. so sue me. )

ALL YOURS

Unfortunately........ its about S$44/++ TnT
haha. have to be content with listening to this.....

haha.... so.... nice..... however some of the songs required abit more listening to get use to it, unlike her Call Me Miss album......... funny thing though is that her STILL is the same as the As One song that she has.

Her こんなに近くで... is very very relevant to alot of people. haha. how ever when i pass the song into a translator, i get abit dizzy...... so...

tada! the rip-off-from-website-translation:

Japanese:

恋が切ないと直ぐ傍で気づいたあのよる
だって他の誰より貴方の事を知っているから
いつもの然リ気ない優しささえ
この胸をしめつけてく

こんなにこんなに近くで見つめても
どうしてどうしてただの友達なの
どんなにどんなに強く思っていても
伝えられない
You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you

元気ないよると貴方から言われた瞬間
涙此処すえ首で寝不足からで言い訳した
一番大切な人に嘘を重ねてく今の私

毎日毎日胸が苦しいから
幾つも幾つも眠れる夜を声
初めて初めて出会ったあの日々また
戻れるのならいいのに
I’m so in love with you

愛していると告げたいいいと
もう二度と笑顔には戻れないかも知れない
けれど友達の侭告げリはないは恋以上
私出来ないから

本当は本当はずっと好きだったの
何時でも何時でも愛し続けてたの
貴方に貴方に届けたいきもちを
青い空へと囁いた
I’m so in love with you

Translation!

I realized that love was painful that night by your side
Because I know you better than anyone else
Your everyday kindness
Makes my heart ache

Just like this, I look at you from up close
But why, why are we only just friends?
No matter how strong my feelings are
I can’t convey it to you
You don’t understand
I’m so in love with you

It was a dull night the moment you said it
The tears that reached the tip of my neck were the reason I couldn’t sleep. (!?)
Right now I’m always lying to my most precious person

Everyday, everyday my heart aches
~~There are so many voices I hear when I sleep at night　(!?)~~
I’ve gone through so many, many sleepless nights
Ever since the first day we met by chance
If only we could return to that time
I’m so in love with you

It’d be nice to confess and love you
Is it impossible to go back to our smiling faces?
Although remaining as friends and not confessing might be better than love
Because I’m not able to do it anyway

Truly, truly I’ve always loved you
I always, always want to continue loving you
I want to send these feelings to you
I whisper them to the blue sky
I’m so in love with you

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haha ok. back to reality. I finished chem! so now i have to get ready everything else.

I think i m the only one not going anywhere during the hols.......... siwon is thinking of doing TOEFL at japan.....(can ask her to buy any outrageous stuff..... but then she say i go there myself. lol. in my dreams, where i have money and private jets XD) haha so i m mainly just crapping here because of my joyful mood. Lol... and then my com is sorta hanging. i seriously should change my batt. its highly overheated and it only stores one hour plus of life. That sucks.

christine came to me with a scare. i got so ballistic and freaked out when she said that she cut her wrists. but then it turned out to be a joke. so i became even more ballistic........

its interesting that death can affect many people in a way. it affects the balance of someone's life when someone dies, as we always try to have a control over her life. its so hard to take control of your life actually. Unless you have this pot of gold that is in your bank rotting thats is waiting for you to spend it. and when you die you have no one that is dependent on you. yeah that when you do not have lives spinning out of control. Haha. just realised that my space bar is half shiny, on the right side. friction. LOL.

i should go and study right now. lol. but then there is 5 more mins till i have to wake my mum up. so . lol. after that. hmmm.... theres nothing much to write now. so i shall stop.

holidays and jokes. /// 6:54 am

haha! I got this from teri's blog.

Ah Beng went to take night courses for the reason in future can get promotion or better job. During work, Ah Beng likes to show off to Ah Seng about his knowledge.

Ah Beng: Ah Seng ah... I've been taking night courses for 3 months already, next week is the exam.
Ah Seng: Oh... Good luck ah. Then Ah Beng started show off...
Ah Beng: Ok, I test you, who is Graham Bell?
Ah Seng: Don't know
Ah Beng: He is the inventor of phone la... in 1876, see... if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng: ........................ *speechless*

The next day, Ah Beng shows off again...
Ah Beng: Ah Seng ah... let me ask you, who is Jean Jacques Rousseau?
Ah Seng: Wash your toilet one ah?
Ah Beng: No! He's the author of "Confessions", nah nah nah... told you already, if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng: ......................... *speechless + frustrated*

The next day, once again...
Ah Beng: Do you know who is Alexander Dumas?
Ah Seng: Your gay partner?
Ah Beng: Choiii!!! If you don't know don't simply answer la. He's the author of "The 3 Musketeers", if you take night courses, you would know this.
Ah Seng: ....................... *speechless + frustrated + irritated

This time Ah Seng cannot tahan (stand) anymore and ask Ah Beng...
Ah Seng: Eh... Do you know who is Ah Kaw?
Ah Beng: Errrr... No!
Ah Seng: He's the guy sleeping with your wife!! If you stop night courses, you would know this!!

lol! hahah! Today when i woke up and logged into the computer, i found myself to something slightly sickening. i almost lurched. haha but i wont say, cos its rather.... well very very very mean.

Its the summer hols, and you can see that i havent touched this blog for very long. Why? Cos i didnt have the heart to do it. I would write it, but then only to find out that i was penning down my frustrations. I would then get very irritated, and then i would be rather frustrated after that.

To update you, during this summer i have been doing these:
- procrastinating my chem
- abit of ms sng's project
- sleeping
- eating
- walking around pudong aimlessly with my mum
- or 静安庙 there at 久光
- went out once to starbucks with siwon and christine.......
- playing internet games
- dreaming.
- worrying for my father

yeah basically that. My father had a blocked coronary artery, so he went back to singapore for a stem. And he was rather delighted to show us the video of the doctors inserting the balloon and the stem into his artery..... it was even on some fancy-schmanzy cd. and then he repeatedly showed us the spot where his artery was 90% blocked and how the dye flowed through the veins. This made me reconsider my future profession. As in cardiac surgeons. they earn gazillllllllliiiiiiioooonnnnsssss. Because a simple adding in of the stem cost S$20,000/++ But then the downside. A heart surgeon can only perform a limited number of surgeries in their entire whole life time..... which means that its while stocks last,

Its that time of month for me to become crappy, irritable and act like some hormonal pregnant lady, Argh! make it go away!

Yesterday i was watching part of a movie acted by Elijah Wood. (I sort of spent a few minutes trying to find out what movie it was till i realised that the actor wasnt Tobey Maguire. --'. well they look slightly alike.) Its called 'Everything is Illuminated'. Its about this jewish american guy that went back to his home roots in Russia to find out where is his grandfather. He hires this heritage tour group to help him along with his journey. Its rather funny, cause the tour guides carried the dog along with them and called it the elder man's bitch. lol

When they found out the village, it wasnt a village, but an old lady. The house was off the road and was surrounded by a field of sunflowers, like a fortress. It looked so......... magical. Then when the old lady said she had waited so long for the day for him to come, I sort of realised why she stayed there, surrounded by sunflowers. It wasnt because it was pretty, but then its sort of kept her safe, kept her hopes up, and happy.

darn. cant write anymore. stomach hurts like hell, and mind to droopy to write. too-lu-lu!

bleh /// 9:41 pm

LOL... i have decided that i m going ot update this blog. For the rest of the world to see. But not the people in China. Lol. and my classmates. but its not like they know my blogspot. except singapore.

Its the SUMMER's now. and it feels like it. BLEH.

Haix.

I just made a cup design and its being ruined by my mum. BY HER FINGERS!... SHIT. now the cup looks lyk crap now...... all the clouds on it are smudged. I absolutely hate it.

I have decided. I would write an autobiography of myself. To see what wrongs they have done to me.... but then its a bit narrow minded isnt it? cos we all keep looking at the wrong doings...

...
haix.. not in a mood now. later.