心病最难医。。。寂しいね。。。

what i do when i take down notes while skyping.... /// 9:07 pm

Yeah, in doodly mode.

Now I really want to go and bathe. :S

i want to draw frames of bunnies and place it on my head /// 10:03 pm

... I know totally random title.

But I am feeling that totally random feeling now. So. :*

I skipped my morning classes today.
Was totally drained in the morning, woke up to a womens' call at dawn.
Now am a bit woozy now.

I don't want summer to come!
(If I was in where jloh is, I would want it to (: )
Hahaha.
Crap I am so going to die here.
As in 30+ degrees!!!
I probably have a homeostatic system made out of chocolate.
(get it?... nvm)

I totally love my walkman.
(: Two days already and only one bar gone!
I haven't charged it yet!!
HELLO no everyday-charge-days!

.... Crap, my taskbar and windows explorer are hanging.
My computer is getting old~
Like me.... :S.
Well the HARSH reality of life.
Older, older, and poof!

Sandman by Neil Gaiman is nice!
It's slightly maniacal and emo, but then it really tells you wise lores of the past and of the present.
Its like a walking grandfather.

Sooo... lol whutttt? /// 8:47 am

So......

I got my mp3 player. And it turned out to be surprise.
I ordered a 4GB player, and had gotten a 8 GB instead.
So now I can download lectures and watch it (:.
Also my entire whole song collection is inside ((((:.

I am totally skipping CHEM1104.
Yeah, I can't find any purpose in sitting in SSLT listening to an old lady talk while I simultaneously zone out 6 times in a minute.
The last lesson li jin was playing luminati on my phone.

I miss Broadway food.
But then I don't have the time to go there and eat.
:S Unless I walk there before I go home.
Which is very very mafan.

Lol, I was just thinking about abos.
The way that abos are described here are like Singaporeans in the past describing the oily man.

sea spray candles. /// 7:50 pm

AAAH... nice smells.

Well, I am going to get this tmrrrrr...

YAYY!!!

So, everything has been done. Procrastination, and what nots. All done.

It's such a shocker today, with the new Chem1102 lecture. He just made Kekule's snake sound like they were snakes on crack. Well, he doesn't seem particularly pleased with his line of work. That is rather sad. However, its like a mask to mask his devotion to teaching, especially since so he wants people to keep quiet so that others can listen. Which also forces people who don't want to listen to listen.

Well I am tired. Not writing anymore.

Procrastination 101 /// 9:04 pm

Yes, my procrastination cycle has started.

1100h - Started on the lab report
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1500h - Wrote first title
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1600h - Rewrote title
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1900h - Wrote headings for sections of the lab report.

..... *facepalms* Yes it has started. Now I have to do my best to concentrate. SIGH.

Tomorrow I have church, so I must do this quickly and sleep early!

..... My housemate is going clubbing for a singaporean event and I am not. /// 8:23 pm

Yup. My scentiments are exactly as stated on the blog title.

I feel so left out!
But its not like I want to club.
Personal values and choice before peer pressure!

So for people who wants to know WTF is the stretched bladder thing,

Yes, I did touch cadaver
Yes, I did touch an embalmed heart
Yes, I did touch the bones of Lucy and
Yes, I did touch an over-stretched bladder of a male which was cut open.

And yes I saw a few limp penises and hardened vaginas, but lets not go into it.

(Yeah, (bimbo accent)if you're so a NECROPHILLIAC, then you should totally go do human biology. In an accredited university where people bother donating their corpses to you)

Well, I skipped CHEM1104 and SCIE1106. Apparently the Justice of Peace certifying your documents doesn't cost anything at all. :S. Wow, my parents paid a few at the Australian High Commission. RIP OFFS.

So, I am craving for raw fish badly now. And I can't be appeased.
FEAR THE RAW FISH MONSTER!
Pfft.

I just paid for my Sony Walkman just now.
I hope everything works out well, as I just paid 150 bucks for it.....

update /// 7:28 pm

So...

Li jin: I didnt see HCl today. Although I had SCIE. But then he probably takes lab on thursday or something.

So next time i got SCIE lect i will help you stalk him for you. And find out what colour his boxers are. <_<

Hahah back to the real topic.

Theres a test of HB on thursday but I am so lazy. I havent started studying. :S.

I took a nap just now, and now i still feel hungry... whattttt..
Pim actually lost 6 kg while studying for the o's... O_O...
I cant do that.

Haha!
I just found out vanessa stays in st cats!
Lol, just saw the application for the tutorial classes on st cat's website.

Today's SCIE lect quiz was gayyyy.
How are we supposed to know that we cant write it 3'-_______-5'?
No one told us that it was a rule.
And then I made a careless mistake, that the polymerase went from the 5' to the 3' end. :S.
And also the questions were a linked with this principle, so I got many wrong.
And because I was talking about tropoisomerase to Pim this morning, then i got it mixed up with helicase and said that it stops supercoiling.
whatttt.
but prelab quiz was okay, just that i have lab report due next week
bummers.

I slept in CHEM1102.
yeah. I could feel piggott looking at my really obvious nodding actions.
its like the more i forced myself to wake up, the more tired i felt.
That really sucked.
And when he said that class was over my eyes went O_O.
wide awake.
yeah. selective sleeping habits....

so i should study.
But I am still in holiday mode..... sighhhh.
I want to sleep like a pig!!!

oh yeah! Black fingernails!!!!

just felt like painting one white line on my left index finger.

Colour Change! /// 10:04 pm

Saturday on a Toyota Rav4 /// 11:40 pm

So, Keith, my homestay's bf, got himself a new car. Toyota Rav4. The car that I have been eyeing in Singapore, including the Lexus make of the same car.

So.... we went to Hillary Harbour.

Salt and water.

And it was nice. Actually going out on a Saturday with someone else.

The sea was soooooo blue. And the weather was so hot... Its really neurotic, the weather here.
So it was ranging a 22 deg, and now its like 9 deg, and the min temperature will continue dropping here.

Yeah going back into the topic.

There was a Emily the Strange + some other misc stuff shop. The bags were so nice!!!!!! Tempted to buy one, but then nahhhhh.

So basically we walked the entire harbour.

There was a fishing competition taking place then. And some guy got some............ mutant bass. Well maybe a black garoupa. I dont know, but i just know that it was massive. And then the guy was teaching the guy who caught it to cut it.

And some idiots diving into the harbour. The irony is that.... they were standing on this mini guard tower which had a very big sign saying " SWIMMING PROHIBITED". So they are either dumb or illiterate. I choose both. There was a jagged rock break water near the side for God's sake!

We talked to this kid who was sitting down there near the fishing competition. We thought the bucket was a bait bucket, but then it turned out to be a pail carrying a small fish. The kid said "Its a fish, I catched it. I catched it there!" Hahahahaha it was slightly funny, with the grammatical error.

And we went to eat gelato!!!!... The australians love their gelato. There were many flavours, but I chose Lemon Meringue Pie flavour. mmmmm. Really enjoyed it. (:

And then we went to the Scarborough Shopping Arcade, where someone was selling thick winter coats at $10. Its like their clearance sale is really clearance sales......

Haha! and we saw this Maltese-shitzu-pekingese? cross and it was SOOOOOO CUTE. Its cute as those Russ beanies.....And soft too. :3

And we left after that.

Um, if you bother to save the picture and zoom in, you will see this sail boat. But then these pictures were taken with my phone, so......

So we went to Keith's mother's house. She had a really nice garden. Probably because of all the ant hills there. I counted about 8. And they were on the driveway...... Quite an ant problem, eh?

We stayed in the car (me, helena, luissa) so we practially watched the sunset while exploring Luissa's iTouch. Which comes to me wonder about the practicality of the iTouch. As in you can get an iPod which will give you the same properties if your iTouch has no internet and an iPhone that gives you more with calls.

Point: Apple stop wasting resources to make in between products!!!

So, as I was saying, we stopped at Nando's to eat dinner. I think I ate something burnt just now. My throat doesnt feel as good now.

And then we went to Keith's apartment. To watch tv. -.- well foxtv. So.... we watched the first part of High School Musical 2 and then watched the Olympics. Which led me to fall asleep. Apparently the three of us all fell asleep after each other. And then we woke up and left the apartment at 11.

So here I am. A bit too alert.

testing /// 12:19 am

trying feed for soup.

song game! (: /// 8:50 pm

01. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Can You Keep A Secret - Utada Hikaru

02. WHAT WOULD DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Just a Friend - Kana Nishima

03. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Nue No Naka Yoru (Night when the nue howled) - Tomiko Van [sadddd.....]

04. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Ready Steady Go - L'Arc~en~Ciel [Wheeee]

05. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Kiss Kara Hajimeyou (Let's start with a kiss) - Arashi [OMG what kind of purpose is that?]

06. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Watashi to Warutsu wo (Dance with me) - Chihiro Onitsuka [lol. reminds me of some old movie where people danced for fun in the countryside of italy.]

07. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Valenti - BoA [Wtf?]

08. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Hadashi no Cinderella Boy (Barefoot Cinderella Boy) - NEWS [um, whatttt?]

09. WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
One Love - Arashi [When some guy sings this to me, yes I will. ]

10. HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard [ NOOOOOOOOO OMG WORST SONG FOR A LOVE LIFE!!!!!!!!! well at least still got time to make it right]

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Journey - w-inds [nice, i always think of moving]

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?
Mousou Chop - Ai Otsuka [omg I m delusional.]

13. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Guilty - Blue [........... oh shuddup.]

14. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Cherish - Ai Otsuka [Well, I have been feeling that for quite a while]

15. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Runaway Train - Arashi [Im going to be such a problem ~~child~~ adult in the future]

16. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Someday -Koda Kumi [ Oh no, cute, sweet, deep, hopeless love.]

17. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Good Man - India Arie [OMG. broken, estranged family song]

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
A Perfect Sky - Bonnie Pink

19. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
How's A Man Supposed To Change - Blue [ NOOOOOOOOOO. thats a VERY bad song to dance to]

20. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Amazed - Duncan James [WRONG SONG.]

21. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Action (Mr Joshua Edit) - Saint Etienne [ a bit workaholic? daredevil? its a lounge song.]

22. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Colorful - Yuna Ito [ Um out out out.]

23.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Michiyuki (suicidal lovers)- Kaori Hikita [I have a SECRET BOYFRIENDDDD!!!! not.]

24. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Sleeping Beauty - Tchaikovsky [weird just weird.]

25. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Natsu no Owari ni Omou Koto - Arashi [ i guess i will have my ups and downs.]

26. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?

Sha Hai Zi (Stupid Child)- Yan Wei Ling [I guess not. I dont know]

27. HOW CAN YOU MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY?
Koi Ni Ochitara (falling in love) - Crystal Kay [By falling in love darn.]

28. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
D-tecnolife - UVERworld [thats sad. very sad]

29. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Hanasanai (Don't Let Go) - Arashi [.... um..... i want to. cant i?]

30. WHAT IS SOME GOOD ADVICE FOR YOU?
I'd Like To - Corinne Bailey Rae

31. HOW WILL YOU BE REMEMBERED?
Last Kiss - Crystal Kay [ whatttt....]

32. WHAT'S YOUR SIGNATURE DANCE SONG?
Time Will Tell - Utada Hikaru [Slow Song]

33. WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT THEME SONG?
Namida ga Afuretemo (The Overflowing Tears) - Crystal Kay [Um, yeah, maybe]

34. WHAT DO OTHERS THINK OF MY CURRENT THEMESONG?
A Whole New World - Koda Kumi feat Peabo Bryson [LOL BIG JOKE]

KissHug /// 6:05 pm

OMGGGGG
KissHug is so good.
And its the insert song for 花より男子!!!! ( funny how i cant find 子 in ご of the japanese input)

AAAHHH d(>.<)b XD... Funny now the blinking line for typing is gone. Oh wells. KissHug! <3

Anyway, I havent watch the live action for 花より男子.

BUT I DOWNLOADED THE SONG FOR IT!

YAYY!!!!!! hahaha

kk

lol, today talked to Pim, and she likes 山Ｐ!!!! YAY! fellow 山Ｐ fan! XD hahaha

And after SCIE1106 PUZZLING tutorial quiz that i failed BIG time, (Everyone seems to know what they are doing. As in the quiz was something else from the lab procedures!) I chatted with her and then went to Princess Road and Fairway street with her other friend, Joel, fellow Singaporean to ~~peep into empty houses for rent~~ to see the houses that Joel wanted to rent near the uni. One was über cool, like a kind of modern townhouse that one would pay close to a million in Singapore for.

Haha so funny. And today I didnt sleep for chem1102!!!! OMGGGGGGGG
moral of story: sit next to someone you know during lecture. Then you dont want to sleep.

HAHA! I m even happier now, that I have downloaded the entire whole aiko's single KissHug. :3

and lijin >_> switch house with me! dont stay near the school if youre going to miss all first lectures. <_< lucky you. can afford to skip class. <_<

75% cocoa chocolate = über!
non-sleepy lecture = über!
pokka peach tea = über!
clothes drying in one day = über!
getting new stationary = über!
nice aiko song = über!
happy feeling = über!
making new friends = über!
renewed hope = über!

Thursday /// 9:25 pm

Thursday is the first official day that I am going to start praying dearly for my life.

Perhaps I do not need to worry, but then Paul, Dad is making me worry.

Today's lesson for chem is ok.

I guess I should stop eating during the day, so that I wont fall asleep during lessons. Eating makes me sleep.

Sigh.

Life is sad. Especially when you are have no one to depend on.

I guess I hate the feeling of independence, but then I never really wanted to grow up, get a job and get a family (NO WAY).

I just wanted to travel through the boundaries of childhood and adulthood, swimming through the warm waters of dependence and innocence, living a life of soft security.

Sounds nice? Well, of course it does. Except that it doesnt really exist, unless you are born in the right family, circumstance.

Buts its nice to feel that way, no?

Thats the thought for today.

Anyway, I feel screwed. But I think Yonathon would feel even more screwed, cause he should know the girl's name better than me <_<. Yeah, I talked quite alot to her, and I can't seem to remember her name! OMG.

Luissa has been dancing for quite a long while. Shes like bipolar Siwon+energizer bunny+ very commercialised dance moves+girlishness.

Anyway, I want to move to somewhere nearer to the uni. But I will have to wait till I am 18.

I miss watching movies on tudou. Well I shall pacify myself with new Jpop (:

Darn jt and hx are jetsetting!!!!! I want to do that!

aiko's KissHug is out!!!! But OMG it takes so long to dl hereeeee! TnT