change of site /// 7:40 pm
hmmm changing to
echoesechoing.tumblr.com
emoness. /// 11:50 pm
I m getting over him. I have to. Otherwise i will become worse. I will have to drown myself in work if i have to. Everything has to do with my "Oedipus" complex. I hate my genes.
I need a new hobby. Something like running around like an idiot. Touch rugby? But then i would then have to stay up late at night and pay extra for touch rugby (cos of transportation) being stuck in the middle of nowhere in the "city" is stupid without subway is stupid. I wont take the bus, because no one is really willing to show me. And its really really retarded at times. And dirty. I will never look at SBS the same.
I m going back on the 4th. Which is near. I m supposed to be happy, but then i realise that the SATs are coming. Which makes me emo again.
I really dont know whether i am over him. I m over him right? I dont know. It didnt hit me as hard as it did last year. Which is good. I hope it would go off like it did before. Quickly.
Theres no school tomorrow. Cos of typhoon Winpha. "pha" makes it sound like a name straight out of Mr. Evanno's diary. If he has one. But then it would be written in french, so doesnt make sense.
I think that sometimes I should be less observant and be better in my studies. Its a curse. A very bad one. I m too sensitive to others. It got me really bad when i moved here. Maybe i never truely realised my true sensitivity because i was very very brutally blunt when i was in P1 and there were alot of familiar faces in S1 as there were 12 people from my old school whom i mostly know already. Now, its bad. I miss everyone.
RenewalI woke up this morning,
Finding myself without,
That steel chain,
That connected me with you
And made me feel hollowed throughout.
This love,
So demanding,
Wanting me to give,
And give,
And give my all
To a blank wall.
With each tug,
The chain reopens the wound
That I bound,
Thinking that I will be alright again.
I cant continue this. Its crappy. Maybe I will improve it later. Later.
Kat-tun - you /// 10:51 pm
I had this song in March i think, but then i only left it till now to find out the real meaning... so this is the meaning. Its surprising deeper than it sounds.
KAT-TUN - YOU
Translation by FantasiimakerI wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I wanna be your lover
That transparent smile that I can seemingly reach if I stretch out my hand
it even twinkles, it’s so precious that
I can’t take my eyes off you baby
These feelings are unable to betray you
even if I get hurt, I don’t mind
I can only heatedly show you my heart
*I wonder if it’s okay for me to live for you?
I want to share just one dream with you
I wonder if it’s okay for me to fall in love with you?
I want to wrap you up softly and protect you
There’s no need for decorated words
being strategic and such doesn’t suit me
there’s nothing that I’m hiding
I can’t take my eyes off you baby
There are no lies in these feelings
about the same as the blue of the sky
the beating of my heart from gazing at you now
I don’t want to run from it
I don’t need anything else but you
no matter what kind of sadness, we can get through it
I want to be holding the person important to me
the heartbeat that starts from the two of us
*repeat
[rap]
We don’t need to pretend or anything
because there’s a tomorrow
take out your courage
it can become freedom
Getting past solitude, I’ve finally come across
a miracle that’s being called out by angels
recognize my caring, allow my love
unfasten your heart and come to me
*repeat
Two becomes one…
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KAT-TUN – YOUあなたのために生きていいかな？
あなたを好きになっていいかな？
I wanna be your lover
[rap]
手を伸ばせば届きそうな 透き通るその笑顔
瞬きさえ惜しいほど I can’t take my eyes off you baby
この気持ちは裏切れない 傷ついても構わないさ
胸のうちを伝えるだけ 熱いうちに
＊あなたのために生きていいかな？
たっと一つの夢を分け合いたい
あなたを好きになっていいかな？
そっと包み込んで守りたい yeah
飾り言葉はいらない 駆け引きなど似合わない
隠す事は何もない I can’t take my eyes off you baby
この気持ちに嘘はないさ 空の青と同じぐらい
今見つめたときめきから 逃げたくない
あなたのほかに何もいらない
どんな悲しみさえも超えて行ける
大切な人抱きしめてたい
二人から始まるきらめきを yeah
＊繰り返し
[rap]
託などいらない 明日があるから
勇気を出しなよ 自由になれる
孤独を超えて やっと出会えた
天使が誘う奇跡に yeah
愛撫認めて 愛を許して
心を解いて come to me, yeah
I can believe they call him handsome (NOOO!!!!)
＊繰り返し
あなたのほかに何もいらない
どんな悲しみさえも超えて行ける
大切な人抱きしめてたい
二つが一つに。。
