nauseic thoughts /// 2:48 am
.... Well.
Its 2.49 am now.
I have been awake for 48 mins now.
I have very bad sleeping habits, no?
Now im deliberating between AVG and AVAST... ( if you dont know what are they, they are free antivirus programs)
I have one day to finish my girl PS painting. Which goes on very slowly.
My eyes feel puffy, which is very very very unbearable.
Sigh.
Im still panicking inside for my tickets to Perth. Apparently I cant get them issued. Qantas is trying to play a stupid joke on all of us. RAHHHH.
Now its the best time to play the song ひとり.
ひとり-中島美嘉Translation by: Jonathon WuThe streets dyed in crimson redThe shadows on the pavementThat picture of usWhere did it go to?Silently passing byIn the middle of the seasonThe only one leftIs me...GentlyDisplaying my weaknessIt was possible,Even though I didn’t think soIt was aclumsy love [we had]Just one more timeIf the two of us can just return to that timeWithout being mislead IEmbraced you[Please] don’t let goThe night dyed in blackHugging my kneesI think back uponThe day you came overSurely I was childishI didn’t see it [at first]I say, the name of love isUnderstandingAt that timeMy chest was pilled upEven thoseRepeated memoriesThe disolvedWithout even a soundJust one more timeIf I can just return to that one nightI embrace your backWhen you try to walk away[And then] I stopped pulling you back...When I was so selfishI told myself it was the solution a hundred timesSoon it will be alrightI keep on going, waiting, all by myselfThose painful memories of youYou lived on and found someone to be withThere’s no misery for anyone but meBut even nowI can’t forget [you]Just one more timeIf the two of us can just return to that timeWithout being mislead IEmbraced you[Please] don’t let goIts a nice song to listen to alone.
I am currently listening to 鬼束ちひろ who sounds really really like AI. But with a jazz sound. And every song makes you want to cry. Well. want to. but no.
月光(Moonlight)-鬼束ちひろ
Translation - Teresa Ko
I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...
My stride succumbs to a sudden gust of wind
It seems like I’ll fall any moment
But these chains won’t allow it
Having surrendered up my heart to you
My feelings for you now lay scattered about
I still don’t know how to pick them up
I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...
Talk more about your ‘reasons’
Until I fall asleep
I’m swathed in medicine that doesn’t work
Here, there is no sound,
What should I believe in?
I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought: I have no place anywhere
Discomfort, a bitterly cold wall,
What will the next thing to weaken me?
Don’t reach out your hand, even at the end
You, of all people, will rescue me
From the silence
Time will speed the pain
I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...
I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought
I have no place anywhere
Sigh.