Addiction /// 9:36 pm
Well.
My room is in a mess.
Because I am really slumming now.
My brain is fuzzed up with thoughts of you.
Its like being on eternal antidepressants.
Its my fault in the end, for expecting so much and nothing at all.
It's the Queen's birthday tomorrow.
But I
still need to go to school.
Sigh.
Another day of over-expectations, where I find myself hating my ever working mind.
I got a bar of peppermint soap from Pim today, and it smells nice!....
But I haven't used it yet, (smells too nice to be used :3)
I really need the school internet, the internet sucks here.
I am sick of food.
Funny eh?
I lost the appetite to eat Japanese, Italian, Chinese, Western, Indian, fast food.
All because it all seems so bland now.
Sigh.
I think tonight is another sleepless night, because I can't stand to dream of him again.
This is the first time that I have dreamt so much about someone else.
It makes life more excruciating, and sad.
And before someone tries to SPECULATE, I am not goth, nor emo.
I just like the colour black and I am sad because fate by the Lord has made me to worry more than laugh.
Breaking down seems so easy, but then I refuse myself to do that.
Its such an easy way out, instead of solving it out.
But how to rid myself of such a feeling?
“...I Wanna Be Loved
いつかは 未来
最後の奇跡の中で
光と闇に抱かれて
心の空に
かすかな夢を見つける...
...
窓の向こうには夜があるよ
輝くために
ずっと待っている
もういちど 灯り消せば
どこかに あの星...”
sigh.
